I am Dragon

Well, I am starting to go back to posting on things regularly. Don't know how I feel about that right now. I need to get some packers moving stuff in here but I feel like, can I trust Elizabeth? Should I call and ask about that?

Are phone calls dead for me?

I dislike the fact there is no "schedule post", but I am assuming that is because posts are generally vetted first or have to go through review of some sort. Oh what am I thinking, I told myself i would be more honest, I need to make phone calls and plan, I got boxes here, now who is... it's me.

What do I want to do? I was thinking about all the possibilities. Life is short, I was thinking about my dad for a bit, thinking I could go visit him after a while. I have his phone number, I don't know. Maybe... My mom woke up now. I can't go. I can't do anything now.

Fast forward to now I am writing fucking Jahon to come wit me to the bar, like why? this isn't me. We aren't talking. I mean this is why I ran from him to begin with, I am barely getting used to being in a bar setting, but this one is pretty nice I think if I keep coming here I'll feel more comfortable.

I will try to stop worrying about not fitting in and just vibe with the mushroom painting everywhere... It's great that they have actually good food. A lot of bars just lather on the lard and call it good, this is actually pretty decent menu.

I am actually not sure if it is a good idea that I invited him over again. I think this is more battle of the egos or like the last battle or something. I really want to think of what I want to ask him. I was like:

давай~ (come over here~)

to which he just replied:

давай~ (goodbye)

Then I learned what humor is in Russian.

Actually, this was such a good phrase I learned.

I am such a weirdo, what the hell is this? I am too calculating with him. My INTJness just gets amplified around an ENTP.

Lookin at his story on instagram, he seems to be on some weird wilderness vision quest, or he is just a mountain man. Which I find fascinating. He is completely the opposite of Yuuichirou in some way. Not really, if you live in Oregon you end up going out into the forest at least a few times if you hadn't before you got here..

Probably reminds him of his childhood, but I don't know if he's fully grown up. I don't think this is the worst mistake I've made, but I am wondering how far back this is going to push me. Meh, I guess it is the whole thing of me wanting to like Doordash dick all the time, I mean I am in a bar and I dunno how to vibe. This place is pretty chill so, I don't blame the venue. It is definitely me.. If he comes, he is being very generous. I do think that, I have to consider that it might not end well, maybe it shouldn't I don't know. I can't control everything. I invited him, that's all there is to it. I will have to wait until morning to see the consequences if I make it until tomorrow.

I am done being critical of my mistakes right now, everyone is saying that I don't deserve to stress until it becomes critical. I like this bar though, it is waaaay better than the ones down town. It has a earthy vibe with the mushrooms and plants, and people seem cool here, for real.