From doubt to destiny

Since childhood, I’ve been blaming myself for everything. I complained about how I looked, how people made me feel insecure, how there wasn’t a single good thing about me… and how maybe, I shouldn’t have been born in the first place.

So yeah, that was me—7 or 8 years ago. I wasn’t the happy, loved, main character child. I used to believe I was a bad luck charm to my family and basically to anyone I had contact with. I was desperate to change my life.

And if you come from a brown family—especially as the eldest daughter—you’ll get me.

I was desperate to change how I looked because the people around me made me feel so unworthy. They constantly pointed out my flaws and insecurities, leaving that version of me crying myself to sleep. It was so normalized back then.

But there’s this thing about me—I’m a control freak (typical Capricorn, I know). So I was stressed beyond words, trying to get a grip on a life that felt like it didn’t even belong to me. I felt like I had no identity, no soul—just a body that wasn’t good enough.

Until I stumbled upon a video.

A video?!

Yup. You’re probably like, “What kind of video could change someone’s life?!”

Hold up, babes, I’m getting there.

I was actually searching for a workout to change my physique—not entirely, just a little. Quarantine had just started, and I had this dream of blooming into my best self by the end of it.

But instead of a workout, I ended up clicking on a subliminal audio.

Now now now… don’t know what a subliminal is? Don’t worry, I’ll explain in another story.

That audio made me curious. I read the comments, and something inside me said, “Try it.” And that one decision became the gateway—not just to a glow-up, but to a complete reality shift.

It wasn’t just that one video. It led me into the world of LOA (Law of Attraction) and spirituality.

LOA? Another story for another day—but know this: it’s a universal law that never fails.

I was hooked. I’ve always been the detective child, digging deeper, asking questions. So I started researching, experimenting, diving into this new world with my whole heart.

And guess what?

That insecure little girl—the one who felt unworthy, broken, invisible?

She started owning herself.

She discovered her worth.

She grew—emotionally, mentally, spiritually.

She stopped being insecure and started radiating confidence.

She no longer chased love or validation, because she knew what she deserved.

She became the “I want it, I got it” woman.

I’m not saying it was overnight, but it was divine. I started experiencing peace and clarity. I went from crying about my appearance to being grateful for my beauty. From begging to be loved… to being the most pampered one. From a people pleaser to a boundary-setting queen.

I’ve accepted myself. I’ve become my own muse.

This journey changed everything. It will always be the most beautiful and transformational part of my life. And the best part? I’m still learning. Still discovering. Still becoming.

Because what I’ve learned so far is this:

Everything starts from within.

The world around you is just a reflection of your inner world.

This was just my beginning. In the next story, I’ll share some of the craziest manifestations that actually came true. You won’t want to miss them.

Till then, take care. XOXO :)