Five years of love is not worth an online love

Today, I told my story in Tianya emotional world for the first time, and maybe for the last time. This is the place where she introduced me and where I left for her. We are husband and wife. I love her very, very much. Someone asked me how much I love her? I don't know, because I can't answer, or give an example to prove it, or it doesn't explain anything at all. It's just some amazing actions in the words of love at that time. When I first met her and fell in love with her, when they were concerned about the confusion of love, she told me that her first time was because she was not sensible and gave it to her first boyfriend. I had never been in love with her before, let alone touched a girl. Listening to this thing was like a bolt from the blue. She immediately cried when she saw my face. She said she knew that no one would accept a woman like her. My heart was broken when she cried. I used to hold her and swear to her that she would always be the most perfect in my heart. That night, she committed herself to me. When she lay on my chest, she said to me, don't blame her with this fault even if we quarrel badly in the future. I made my promise. Until the divorce, I never violated it in my usual quarrel.

We got married. After marriage, because of the nature of my work, I spent more time at home. She is in an administrative class in an institution, so I undertake all the housework. I am the only child in the family. My parents have always complied with my requirements. As long as my requirements are reasonable, they will try their best to help us. Especially in buying a house and building our small family, we can be said to be meticulous. My mother loves us because there are relatives in the countryside who often come around and send some local specialties of chicken, duck, fish and rice. She was never willing to eat and sent them to the city. So that we don't have to buy these things for several years. We just need to buy fresh vegetables every day. But I always feel that her heart is not on me, because she has never cared about me as much as other women care about her husband. I don't know what it's like to see my friends wearing clothes and holding things carefully taken care of by my wife.

Once I told her that a good friend of ours only needed to read the newspaper when he got home since he got married. His wife would get everything ready. She snorted. There is such a disheartening woman! What's particularly hard for me to accept is that when her friends come to play at home, she just sits on the sofa to chat with them, buy vegetables and cook, of course, including washing dishes. I don't have many friends, only two very good friends, but every time they two couples come to play, she just says hello and enters the room to chat online. I didn't say much, let alone cook in person. I once said about her secretly. She coldly replied that I didn't know him. There was nothing to say! I have communicated with her many times. I hope she can make me face up to my friends. She always stares wide, and I don't beg them. Why should I be nice to them? No one believes it. When she takes a bath every night, she has to say something. Where did you put my underwear?

Once I met her on the way to buy vegetables. They came back together. On the way, her colleague asked her how much is a kilo of vegetables? She couldn't answer. When I got home, I looked as if I had deliberately made her ugly. I admit that my personality is weak. The main reason is that I am very afraid of her unhappiness, so I give in to her unprincipled. I thought it would move her, but I was wrong. The result of doing so only increased her contempt for me. After installing broadband in the unit, we began to surf the Internet crazily. Because there was only one, we often quarreled about it, so we bought another one. We thought it was a good way to solve the quarrel, but who knows it was a tragic beginning. After having a computer, they hid in the hut to surf the Internet after dinner, and no one interfered with each other. At that time, after I applied for Q, I truthfully filled in my marital status. As a result, no one was willing to add me. So I simply changed to unmarried, which is much better. Gradually someone added me. I have always separated the Internet from reality. No matter how well I talked, I won't tell them their real name and real work unit. I won't tell them the home phone. At the beginning, her evaluation of my practice was two words, hypocrisy! Sometimes she would tell others her home phone. I was very angry, so she switched to her mobile phone. In the middle of the night, I often received text messages. I was very angry, but she just didn't send them in my face and behind my back. Since the Internet, there have been problems in our husband and wife life. I admit that she is a man with strong sexual desire. When she comes back to bed from another room, she is always reluctant to express to me, either too late or too tired. When I see her yawning, I don't want to encourage her. So sometimes our husband and wife don't live once a month. When I talked to my doctor friends, they thought it was impossible at our age (I was 31 and she was 29).

For a while, she simply said that I snored too loudly at night and went to sleep in another room alone. Until I saw that I was very angry, I moved back bitterly. I found that she has changed a lot. In the past, she hated the intimate expression on QQ. As soon as someone sent it to her, she was immediately blacklisted. But then she got used to it. She became more and more indifferent to me. Because she had a good chat, she asked her to buy earphones. I firmly opposed it, but I still didn't beat her and bought them against her heart. So it's even more out of control.

When I come home every day, I immediately sit in front of the computer and chat without asking whether I have cooked or bought food. And sometimes I lock the door when I go out. When I came back and opened the door for a long time, she opened it in a panic. When I questioned her, she despised it, as if it was not worth explaining the reason. She just stayed online for a while. She didn't get to the Internet for a while. Sometimes I surf the Internet until more than 4 a.m. when I wake up in another room, I can still hear her laughter. I began to be suspicious. Taking advantage of the convenience of having a friend who is a computer expert, while she didn't pay attention to her chat record, it can be said that it was the explosion of ten atomic bombs on her head, which didn't shock me. I saw the record made by her on the phone with others. Such disgusting words came from her hands! I wrote down the person's phone number. I called her at home. At first, she denied it, but after I said the details, she stopped talking and only emphasized that it was not really done!!! I calmly talked to her about the division of property after divorce. I called the man in front of her and asked him to come from Inner Mongolia with his household registration book and ID card. I told him that if he was sincere, I would take her out and help them get married immediately. If he dares to play with her, he should be careful. He is afraid of dog life! She was speechless, just a look that she had done nothing wrong. I think I will try to be strong. Having said so much, I feel much better. I have seen many joys and sorrows on the Internet at the end of the world. I never thought it would happen to me. I just want to tell those who are addicted to the Internet that tragedy often comes secretly when we think it is impossible. It may be too late to think that things that cannot happen to you deserve attention.