El Amor

We will always be young in each other’s minds and that makes the love we lost a far more beautiful sentiment. Sometimes love can be a lot to bear when you’ve never received it fully, it doesn’t mean you don’t deserve someone to stay when all you face is heart break, I can see why you run away. Sometimes you just need someone to meet you in your comfort zone to show you, you deserve to be loved.

Loving you has never been a challenge or inconvenience everything about you captivates my attention. Growing up realizing that love is not just a feeling someone has for another beautiful soul, love is much greater than that. Loving you means that I am going to choose you every day even on the hard days where we don’t want to see each other. Loving you means loving each one of your flaws just a little more. Loving you is loving all of your insecurities and turning them into your greatest strengths in life. Loving you means going mad for a while to able to understand you much better and in a much deeper level. Loving you means having sleepless nights thinking about our future. Loving you means that I don’t want anyone else if it’s not you. But Loving YOU means that every day is a new challenge I am not afraid to attack it head on because having you in my life seeing you level up just makes it so much better. Loving you…… means every time we separate I better myself for our next encounter. Loving you means I put myself before you so I can provide for you.

BUT……

Loving you unconditionally means that no matter what happens to us I will always have your back no matter how much time has passed or what’s happened between us. Loving you unconditionally means that my life has a bigger purpose now because I get to unlock new potentials, I never knew I had. Loving unconditionally is loving you even more when you hate me just a little. Love has no limitations, no boundaries, or logic to it since it just something bigger than just a feeling. Loving you now means I am putting everything I feel and desire into the hands of our higher selves and our higher beings. Loving you now means I love who were in the past, who you are in present and who you will be in the future. Loving you now means I get to appreciate the moments just a bit more because I know the feeling of losing you. Loving you now means I get to open my heart up again but for all the right reasons. Loving you means that I will go to the ends of earth for you.

Loving you…… well that’s what I do best. Because loving you never felt like a 9-5 job or something that I must do. Loving you means I get to hang out with you getting to hear about your daily problems whether they are internal or external; it means I can get to grow older with you by my side. I will always meet you halfway even if you can only take a small step a day, you only know hurt with love, but I can see the warmth so if you want we could take it slow not saying it will be easy but I’m just saying that maybe you don’t got to go quite yet. Maybe I am selfish when it comes to you, but I don’t like sharing what is meant for me, but most importantly loving you means that I can look at you in the eyes tell you that I love you so fucking much.