We were young and didn't have any children yet, so we always let his sister and brother come over to stay the night. We would play video games, watch movies, and ate popcorn and we made the most out of the night. Just fun nights. One night I rented a DVD from blockbuster for us as we usually did, It was to be returned within the next two days. I went out for work that morning and I had forgotten to grab the DVD, no big deal, I thought. Oh, how wrong I was about that! I came home from work that night, his sister seen me come home and ran across the street to my house wanting to hang out. I was the cool sister-in-law, and I liked the company, Plus he was already drinking and he was already drunk. His sister and I were sitting on the couch, she was telling me about her day and we were laughing and giggling, he heard us. He couldn't stand seeing me happy it was like he would hit me on purpose so my laughing would immediately turn it into crying. He was walking toward the living room and he had seen the DVD and started yelling, I said "I'll take it back tomorrow" he immediately started swinging at me and grabbed me by the neck, choking me. DVD in one hand and my neck in the other, the DVD case went across my face while he was still choking me, I begged and pleaded for him to stop, and by this time I was crying the DVD going across my face over and over again. It felt like the last time he did it as hard as he possibly could, by this time my face felt numb. So numb I started to not be able to feel what was happening at the time. I had thought that it was almost over but then I realized that this is just the beginning of my suffering. Keep it in mind that his sister was still there watching us, she was crying as suspected, because she didn't know what to do or what was happening at the moment. I do remember her asking for him to stop, it was just a DVD, as this happened he just began to get angrier. He still had his hand gripping my throat, he slammed my head into the wall so hard and my head busted through the wall and I was begging him to stop, I couldn't breathe. I was so cautious of what might happen next "I said take back the DVD!" he said, at this moment his sister was so scared she took off running home. I thought to myself that she might have run to go get help, Thank my lucky stars! My head in the wall, his hand around my neck choking me, I was thinking that she finally ran to go get help. He finally took the DVD case and slammed it to the wall 2 inches away from my head, he released my neck and said "Take back the DVD now." It was finally over and come to find out his sister had run across the street into the room because she was so scared to tell anyone including her parents of what happened and what he was doing. I was heartbroken but understood at the same time. She was just a child and for a child that would be a lot to handle and comprehend what happened. I thought someone finally seeing his true personality and seeing his true colors was going to help me. The next day his sister walked up to me and looked me in the eyes and said "I am sorry, I was so scared and I didn't know what to do, I'm so sorry".
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Lizzy Allen
When you are at your points in life, is it defeat and failures? Failures are only lessons so you can get to your highest achievements with knowing how to succeed.
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By Lizzy Allen5 years ago in Confessions
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