7 Ways I Changed My Life

After the death of the old man I knew I had to act fast to get out of that toxic situation. A situation I was always in, a life I knew no better on. Writing this blog entry is the most hardest thing I ever wrote. Proceeded in death was the loyalty I ever had for my ex family.

Leo Adams Jr., 76, of Medina, passed away Friday, August 20, 2021. He was born June 20, 1945 in Wayne, West Virginia to the late Nancy (nee Rowe) Adams.

He was a master carpenter, loved hunting, fishing and going to Amish Country.

Leo is survived by his loving daughters, Loretta Lynn Adams and Lisa Burton; granddaughters, Emily Curry and Morgan Burton; great granddaughter, Davina Burton and sister, Pauline Aliff.

In addition to his mother, Leo was preceded in death by his beloved wife, Loretta (Copley) Adams and sister, June (Adams) Lingle.

Per Leo's request cremation has been chosen, no services are being scheduled at this time.

The Adams family has entrusted Carlson Funeral Homes & Cremation Services, Brunswick with the arrangements.

In lieu of flowers please make donations in Leo's name to the American Heart Association, 7272 Greenville Ave., Dallas, TX 75231 or online at https://www.heart.org

Online condolences can be made at www.carlsonfuneralhomes.com

I wasn't apart of any of the arrangements. Maybe that was a good thing. I was completely cut off from everyone. I stayed with neighbours until I could figure out what happens next. Feeling alone to this day I don't know how I endured all of that mentally.

So here are the 7 key points on how I made it the first year:

1: A stepped away from everything: I just had to walk away from everything. Just to process everything, because seemed to go so fast.

2: What I know now I wish I knew then: I wish I would have knew had to handle money like I do now. I would have invested in some time.

3: Stepping out of the US to join in Saint Lucia: This gave me new perspective on everything. To not go through the world in a haze. I felt like in Ohio I was walking like a zombie. Never enjoying my life, I felt not just held back but I also felt alone.

4: Never alone: This is an everyday retraining of the mind but my husband is very patient. You are never alone. Will writing my Memoir remembering all I've been through writing about it feels as though I've been through it all over again?

5: Love myself: In my old situation I couldn't love myself for who I am. The emotional trauma I faced it broke me emotionally. Make me think that nothing I do is right. All of my life he would say, "Emily I don't understand you." You know what that feels like. He was abusive going deeper into it. Now talking about him at least I don't burst into an ugly cry.

6: Dreaming of cooking in my own kitchen in the state I never felt like was my own: I dream of cooking real meals with my husband in our kitchen at an affordable price. Groceries in Saint Lucia are so expensive. I mean I love home but I miss eating a cheeseburger from McDonalds.

7: Moving forward: This is been extremely hard for me to do. But I've been trying very hard. So much so that I am in a better mental state I ever been in, and I feel like mentally I'm ready to go back to Medina, Ohio and to bring my husband with me.

In addition, working hard for what you want is an every day thing. But it's worth it just to move forward. And even when you don't wanna work keep working. Because one of those side hustles or jobs will take off sooner or later.

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