Word of the Day: 死亡記事

I was going to write about my grandma again but then decided to just talking about what I was doing today since, even though it isn't as productive, I feel like I found a good system for doing things.

I have decided to take my timer to school so I know that I am continually being productive rather than just sort of twiddling my thumbs in class.

I skipped class actually today to just do independent study near the library.

I use the back of my Todo list as notes so, I save all the days after I finish the " todo " side.

It is actually working out pretty well right now and I feel hyper productive now, but I think it might just be me excited about the weekend.

I do have an appointment tomorrow at 2pm so I need to make sure my ride will be there for that.

I feel so free right now. I feel like I finally have control over my life for some reason but I mean, I need to just go with it. This liberation is the most I could hope for with how many times I have been disappointed recently.

I do need to check on my homework and see if I can access Canvas right now. I need to just do it on my school computer and no where else. I need to keep my work computer for my art projects and editing my Patreon.

Yes, I have decided to bolster my Patreon as like.. mostly a starter to deciding what I want to do.

I am going to go to bed hungry tonight as there is no food in the fridge. For whatever reason, that means my brain is wanting to torture itself by watching a guy bake bread.

I just feel more aligned right now and I am living for it. IF this is a manic episode, I promise myself now, that I will adhere to my timer, and not do any wierd shit. Like, If that timer goes off, I go to bed or move and that's that.

It's a challenge to myself to keep myself steadily productive while trying to avoid burnout. This is a hard thing to do since, well, life happens and things change around. Hopefully though, going forward, I will be able to make progress finally.

I did just doordash groceries for tomorrow so, I have like 18 slots taken out so I won't be able to buy anything extra for like 3 days. I do remember I need to pay my vocal subscription but for whatever reason, the bank isn't taking my payments right now and I don't want to give Vocal my Bank card rather than my credit card.

It is midnight now. I don't feel tired at all. I did take some weed. I didn't really need to since I feel really good right now and I probably could've gotten stuff done without it but, I thought since it is indica, it probably would help me sleep or something.

Like I said, I don't really want to overdo anything. I know I am excited and ready to do stuff but, I do need to just do my todo list, as it were.

I don't know what I am going to do after my appointment tomorrow but, I wish I would have told the driver a different pick up date.

It's ok though. I am just going to deal with it as it is.

I do think I need to think if I need to talk to Keely or Teresa again...