I’m no longer a kid but my life’s still kinda a nightmare?

I told my mom, I said, IT ISNT A PHASE MOM. And I was right. Once an emo Kid, always an emo kid. Having said that, I’d like to add that I’m multifaceted. I’m not just an emo kid. My taste in music Is all across the board and it’s been that way all my life: this playlist, which I will now only refer to as ‘WOW! That’s what I call Teen Angst!Vol 1‘ (you know, like the NOW! CDs that used to come out?) is a little sporadic, a little basic, and if I’m being honest quite Vulgar; I had no business knowing some of these songs so well at 14. But it is what it is.

Alright Folks. Here’s the line up! The top 10 songs featured on WOW! That’s What I Call Teen Angst!Vol 1:

1. I’m Just A Kid - Simple Plan

Could you tell from the title that this song would be on here? Was it too obvious? I can’t think of any song more relatable as a 13 year old coming home from middle school and shutting myself in my room for no reason. I can’t think of another song that sounded so good blasting in the headphones of my Walkman on my walk home from the bus stop with my black sweatshirts hood up, let it be 112 degrees it didn’t matter, it would still be up, don’t look at me. I’m a kid and life is a nightmare. I wish they had warned that life pretty much stays a nightmare but whatever.

2.Lady Marmalade - Christina Aguilera, lil Kim, pink, and mya.

This one came out when I was like 6, and I loved it then. I rediscovered it when I was 13/14 and played it on repeat on YouTube in my kitchen everytime my parents left the house until I could sing every single key, with every artist on the track, and, cringeingly enough, I tried to do their dance moves and their sexy looks and everything while I watched the music video. I’m glad no one else ever witnessed that and it’s embarrassing to admit, but there you are... I still didn’t realize this song was about sex work. I don’t care either way it’s just funny I know the lyrics so well and did for so long and still never realized the meaning behind it.

3.My mom -Eminem

This is one of those where I can’t believe I was listening to this on repeat and rapping along at 14...but there I was. My first phone, I downloaded it as a ringtone and set it to my moms ringtone. When she eventually heard it, she was livid. Took the phone. But I have no regrets, it was clever...it was just the beginning part of the chorus anyway. God.

4.Hurt - Johnny Cash

As the black sheep, the problem child, the outcast of my family, I was also almost automatically made the scapegoat. I was the fuck up, and I hurt a lot of other people growing up while I was hurting...I broke a lot of hearts that didn’t deserve it including my own, just because. And I related hard to this song when I was In those kinda feels.

5.Girlfriend -Avril Lavigne

Hey hey you you I don’t like your girlfriend

No way no no

Think ya need a new one

Hey hey you you

I could be your girlfriend *guitar solo*

The lyrics say it all....I don’t know a single teenage girl that wasn’t feeling this song at some point.

6.Don’t trust a hoe -3oh!3

This song was so iconic. Tell your BFF if he says he’s got beef, that I’m a VEGETARIAN and I’m not FREAKIN scared of him? I mean that blew my mind he didn’t have to go so hard with that line but he did...everytime it would come on the radio me and my bestie would crank it up on our moms cars radios and dance and sing our hearts out...putting on a show for each other and our slightly horrified mothers. Ahhhhh the good days.

7.Mind of a maniac -lil boosie

This song did something to me the first time I heard it. I don’t know why but I suddenly decided I had the mind of a maniac and I knew what boosie was talking about. This is another one I couldn’t believe I still know word for word and learned at 15 but I know I felt like if I had a gun I’d be holding it while I was on the toilet too. And I seen some things too, I might wanna kill some people later in life, if I didn’t kill me first, I’d have to see how things went. I don’t know what it was but. I fell in love with lil boosie, and this song was what did it. It was short lived and sadly I only know a handful of his songs today, but for a few months there he had me going. He came and ate at the restaurant I work at a few years ago but I was too scared to ask him for a picture. I wish I would have.

8.If it means a lot to you -ADTR

This song DOES mean a lot to me. And so does this band. It’s another one I played when I was in my feels, and I still do, actually very frequently play this song. I always will...ADTR forever. Disrespecting my surroundings forever, okay.

9.The way that I love you -Ashanti

I don’t care how happy I ever am with any man when I hear this song I’m hurt by him, and I’m singing until my lungs give out. I learned how to sing by listening to artists like her and trying to match her, which of course was impossible but it was excellent practice, because I can sing, and I owe it all to my teenage years, belting out this song in particular over and over and over again in the bathroom (for acoustics) when I was home alone.

10.Because of you -Kelly Clarkson

This song hits home for me on a very deep and personal level to this day, because it reminds me of my relationship with my mom. If you know what it’s like to be loved by someone who struggles to actually love you, or be in any kind of unhealthy relationship, then this song will put you in your feelings.

Well, there you have it. My WOW! That’s What I Call Teen Angst!Vol 1! For your personal listening pleasure! Enjoy!