I met God today
1. Rock Bottom
I needed to get away. From stress; the stress at work, the stress at home, it all condensed and surrounded me so heavily I felt like I couldnt take a breath. I have always been positive, outgoing, supportive of friends and family, the first to give a dollar, or meal to the homeless. Now my life felt suffocating. A few years ago, tired of building my boss's dreams, i went into business for myself, and we did well. Even during the 2020 pandemic, we made a bit of profit, and were able to keep the doors open. The year before that had been hell, my son had died in the worst possible way, and mentally i broke. But then my wife and i crawled ourselves out of hell, and built a life for ourselves. We struggled a bit, like everyone does, but everything was going well, and now everything was collapsing in on itself. We cant find help, so I've been overworking, taking on all the work I can, and I've burned myself out. The money is drying up, my energy is spent, and everything we have built has fallen apart. So here I sit, parked with the front tires of my truck an inch from the cliff edge, along an old abandoned trail that overlooks lake Travis 300' below me, and I lift my foot from the brake pedal, plunging myself and the truck into the great weightless void of oblivion.
