Acid Trip That Changed my life šŖ
Soo first off RAVES. If you donāt know what a rave is, itās basicly a bunch of a people cracked out on drugs, vibing to edm, & a fuck ton of dancing while wearing the sluttiest but most bad ass outfits.Itās literally the BEST. But anyways so this story begins with a rave/festival called Escape. Escape is Halloween themed & it just happens to land a few days after my birthday. So for my big 18 I decided to go out with a bang & go. It wasnāt my first rave but it was my first rave going in llegaly so I knew what I was getting myself into. But anyways so it was me, my boyfriend, his 2 friends, we didnāt know if we just wanted to take ecstasy & roll or trip on some acid or both and candy flip š¬. Iāve never took acid so I wasnāt sure how I was gonna like it but I said fuck it & put the tab under my tongue. At first when it started hitting me I was DIEING, when I say dieing I mean like throwing up, not being able to walk & feeling dizzy as hell. My boyfriend took it a few times so he was big chilling the whole time but he was sooooo over me within the first few minutes. So once I got my shit together we started walking around the festival grounds & bro let me tell you, that shit was AMAZING!! But wait before I keep going, keep in mind that acid makes you basicly āseeā & think stuff that you been holding off on & been āavoidingā. So yeah we were walking around & as my senses got stronger I looked at my boyfriend & he was glowing, he looked like a goddess, he was wearing this cool, wierd but hot patterned shirt & in this trip he was my āexplorerā showing me around his land. Like I said earlier this event took place during Halloween season so everybody was dressed up as something. While we were walking around I felt like we were walking in slow motion, there was some slutty lions, some slutty clowns, some slutty basicly of any animal you could think of šÆāāļø. Sometimes peopleās makeup & costumes gave me a little scare but as he held my hand & led the way I felt more safer than ever. At one point I felt like I couldnāt handle myself & I had a breaking point & cried & there my boyfriend was trying to make me feel better & more important then ever trying to guide me to the fun & the music while I was riding thai emotional roller coaster š¢. All I could of my whole trip was of my problems at home with my mom. Things werenāt the best, we werenāt talking & she just had such a toxic energy to her everytime I was near her. And donāt get me wrong I love my mom but our relationship was shit & as much As I tried to fix things the more it was got worse for years. And for the first time in a long time the acid made it clearer that I needed to get out of the toxic environment that made me sad & depressed. I needed to do something that made me happy again. So as the night ended & my āexplorerā finished showing me around his wold land we got back to the car and all for us had a moment of realization. We let the night sink in & sat in the car laughing & just vibing, just good vibes all around lmaooo. UNTILL BAMš„ all of us were to fucking fucked up to even drive. It was 4am & it was too expensive to get a Uber, we called everyone we knew to come save us but none came thru. I knew I wasnāt gonna get home so I texted my mom just to let her know I was gonna be sleeping some place else & dude I was not ready for her response. She called me a hoe, a bitch & that all I ever do is be in the streets & some other things but she texted it all in Spanish which made it 183638292x times more hurtful. & thatās the moment where I decided I needed to get the fuck out of her house š” & be happy with the people that make me happy. So I donāt go home for at least 3 days bc I was scared of going back to get my shit & dip. I went one day while she was at work & she literally locked every single fucking window, door literally everything so that I couldnāt get in. So I had no choice to confront her & get it over with to get all my stuff. Keep in mind she didnāt text me that whole time I was gone but yeah. The day came where I grew the balls to go get my shit, I went in & got everything. Well I thought I got everything at the time but I ended up leaving a shit ton of stuff lmao. But anyways since then I havenāt talked to her itās been 5 months without talking to my mom. Iām living with my boyfriend š©āā¤ļøāšØ & itās not that great as I thought it was gonna be but itās better than being around toxic energy. She drained me & im finally free. Iām still young, Iām 18 & Iām not sure exactly if I made the right decision. But what I do know is that I can only grow from here & itās crazy to think what made the final choice of me leaving & what changed my life forever was some acid. š¦šŖ & thatās my story, Thankyou if you actually read all this ik itās a lot but it felt nice to write it šāļø & a lot of you might think Iām dumb for makinh this decision but itās cool, itās my life & im still learning & im just gonna continue to grow š±
