Moving out at 18 🦋

So if you read my last story you know that I decided to leave my moms house after a acid trip 🪐. I didn’t make the decision because of the acid, I made it way before that but the acid helped push me to actually grow some balls to do it. Sooo I basicly left like a couple of days after my 18TH birthday 🍰 bc me & my mom had some problems that just couldn’t be fixed. Well they could’ve but she never tried or at least didn’t try to communicate with me with what she was feeling & stuff. Me & her have had issues since like ever but the last couple months I was at her house I was sad & depressed & would just chill in my room all day just waiting for her to talk to me or come in & check on me which never happened. During this time I had/have a boyfriend & he knew & saw everything that went on with me & her so he always tried making it better by taking me out & just making me smile. You would think that she would be happy I was happy but instead she would find every reason to hate on him. She would mock him, tell me she didn’t want him in the house & when he did take me out she would call me a hoe from the streets bc she said I was never home. But again when I was home she never bothered to check up on me. When I would cry to her about how I wanted to fix stuff between us she would just call me dramatic & sensitive. I love my mom but I just don’t understand what she has against me. Like you only have one mom & I miss her & I haven’t talked to her since October. I thought by moving out I was gonna be happier but it’s only made me sadder because she hasn’t reached out. I thought living with my boyfriend was gonna be a blast 💥 but hell no. I’m 18 & I’m having to worry about all these grown up things, like rent, taxes, grocery shopping, my phone bill & trying to manage my money. I’m currently unemployed rn so I’m STRUGGLING. Luckily I have a bf that works & can pay for my stuff when I can’t. I feel bad tho bc I feel like he shouldn’t have to pay for everything💰. I been applying To like 29376392828 jobs a week & literally nobody wants to hire me :/. At my moms house 🏡 I had a lot of space to walk around & a lot of noise in the house. I had my 2 dogs 🐶, my bird 🐦 & my cat🐱 & my 2 sisters 👯‍♀️. So even tho I was sad & feeling alone I still had all them to keep me company & once I moved out to my boyfriends everything changed. Bc now I’m sad & ALONE ALONE like he has no pets & lives in a small apartment, it’s always dead quite here. He’s always at work so I’m just here in the room waiting till he gets back. So yes I’m happy I got out of that toxic environment at my moms house but I wish we could’ve worked on it. Because now I’m just alone with nobody but my bf & I hate depending on him for everything but yeah .. But I can only grow from here 🌱 so hopefully I can get a job that will get me out of this room & hopefully I can feel happy again without worrying so much bc I’m WAYY tooo fucking young feeling all this shit. But yeah if your a mom, pls check up on your kids, even if they push you away, find time for them, listen to them & communicate with them & show them you love them even if they say it’s annoying.. & if your 18 like me DON’T move out, especially if you have a family that loves you & supports you, stay there .. don’t force your self to grow up, wait till it’s your time, so that your prepared & don’t have to go through everything I’m going through rn 🥀

So yeah that’s my story, hope you enjoyed 🦋 & learned something I guess :)