Vanta Lumina
Bio
Just a student in the school of life. I live, I observe, I integrate.
Former pro bodybuilder. Fractional marketer. Reluctant optimist.
I write what I’ve lived - and what can no longer stay hidden.
Stories (5)
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Grief is the Mirror for Beauty. Content Warning.
This Isn’t a Healing Guide This isn’t a feel-good story riddled with toxic positivity and advice on how you should buckle up your bootstraps and get over it when you’ve suffered a great loss. Neither is it a tale of a rushed urge to heal and stop feeling pain. This story doesn’t offer any expectations or pressure – it is merely my lived experience. The unexpected moments where past wounds were surfaced long after my loss. The instances where I started to feel joy again – and the guilt that accompanied it. The paradox of feeling heartbreak and peace at once and not only being okay with that, but realizing it was the unlock to my ultimate happiness.
By Vanta Lumina8 months ago in Psyche
The Grit Behind the Glory
Bodybuilding is a misunderstood sport. Most outsiders see it as a weak, ego-driven play to gain power and control as a countermeasure to insecurities realized through childhood trauma, bullying, and feelings of unworthiness. Those that do support the sport often idealize and sexualize the athletes. Having been a competitive bodybuilder for 23 years and an IFBB pro for 9 years, I’ve experienced the full spectrum of every stereotype, assumption, and fetish.
By Vanta Lumina8 months ago in Psyche
