Kalli
So this is the absolute true story about the the day my life changed forever little did I know I would never again be the girl I once was, for better or worse nothing in my life would ever be the same. I was 19 years old and had just come home from vacation, Florida for my very first time!!! It was absolutely amazing! We stayed in the most beautiful condo overlooking white sand beaches, I had never seen anything so beautiful in my life!!!! Literally!!! We stayed for 9 glorious days and I loved every second. The only downside was that my very first love had to stay home in Tennessee. So it goes without saying that I missed him like crazy and that was the very first place I went when we got home, like I didnt even shower first! Gross right? Yeah but I didnt care and he damn sure didnt either! Before that trip we had never been apart for even 2 days so 9 was alot to say the least. Let me just get right to the point That was the night I got pregnant with my beautiful girl!! I had a really simple pregnancy no morning sickness didnt gain alot of weight not too mood swingy unless i missed my afternoon nap. I needed 4 hours in the afternoon no matter what!!! Kallis dad was amazing through my entire pregnancy funny but great. Even had an easy labor, I only felt one contraction (lucky me right?) and ta-da it was epideral time!! And before I knew it there was my perfect, beautiful, healthy baby girl!! I have never felt such love in my life, a completely indescribable love that I didnt know existed!!! We stayed 2 days then it was time to take her home and introduce her to her beautifully decorated nursery. These were the happiest moments of my life and if im honest they still are regardless of what happened next.....And nobody could have imagined in there wildest dreams what was to come during those moments of pure joy. But the next came really fast and really aggressively despite what we imagined! I was in no way shape or form prepared for what came next. How could I be? My brain couldnt even fathom the possibility of losing the happiness I had just been blessed with, i guess thats i get for thinking. And just like that here comes the unfathomable! So get ready here comes the loss of happiness.... and the loss of who I used to be and will never be again!
