IN MY HEAD
I am trying to get over him, trying to think of better things to do, somehow I find myself daydreaming of what we would be like, how would our kids look like, how many cats or dogs we’ll have, but I would rather not daydream, I want him to be with me, but he doesn’t want that. He wants us to be friends, he is not ready for anything currently, he has kept his distance and with every second, he spends away from me, I feel my heartbreaking inside. Why can’t he see that we are perfect for each other? He is so perfect in my head that I never want to leave this wonderland that I made for both of us, but he is not perfect at all. In fact, he is very avoidant, very dismissive, he speaks to me like I’m a child, I can’t get a word out when I’m on the phone with him, he doesn’t even care at all.
