Depression isn’t being sad all the time.
It’s not always about crying and being holed up in your room.
When your depression gets really bad you don’t feel anything.
You just feel completely empty inside.
You don’t care about anything; nothing excites you anymore.
You don’t feel interested in things that would normally excite you.
You don’t feel joy when you are supposed to feel joy.
You don’t feel sad when you are supposed to feel sad because you feel completely empty inside.
It feels like you are just existing and and not actually living.
You just feel like an empty tired vessel devoid of any purpose
I feel like I am nothing…..
-Rage
About the Creator
Rage
What goes on in an 18 year old head.
I’m going to try to be consistent ❤️
I’m not really sure how this platform works.
This place is going to be my open diary
Day 4 of Quitting
If this is how sobriety feels, maybe it’s better to go through life a little buzzed… this, along with other hits like, I want to kill myself, I wish I was dead, and I’m going to throw myself off a bridge have been the only thoughts on rotation these past few days. I promise myself that if, in a month, I still feel like this (‘this’ meaning despondent, full of rage, and simultaneously numb) I can go back to smoking. Until mid-February though? Nicotine is off the table.
By sleepy drafts7 days ago in Longevity
Comments (4)
Excellent work!
I hope you are well. Well written too
This one feels so real to me.
This was so poignant and extremely relatable. Loved your poem!