Nicole Pelletier

AngelOwlEyes

I had reached the end of my rope. When would life stop hurting so much? I was so tired of this endless rollercoaster of feeling high only to be torn down to an extreme low. Was I the cause for this? Self fulfilling prophecy, perhaps? At this point, I was no longer sure. All I knew is that I was completely hopeless and defeated in that moment. I had recently moved back in with my parents at the age of 40 after a failed relationship. I was terrified to return due to the trauma that I had went through growing up. I didn’t think I had the fight in me to do this again. I had no vehicle, so I couldn’t go for my beach ride down by the water that relaxed and soothed me. I felt trapped. My intuition called out to me to go for a walk this particular day of wanting to give up all hope. I was led right down the street to the Jewish cemetery near my house. As I walked through, I observed each headstone and was greeting each soul as I passed by. I didn’t know why I was here. It was the closest thing to nature and stillness I could reach. I walked in a straight line all the way down the walkway and collapsed to my right and laid myself out onto the bare grass where the graves had stopped being placed. I looked up at the sky. It was a beautiful day and it felt strange to feel so hopeless in that moment. As I cried, I closed my eyes and thought to myself “God help me.” I opened my eyes and stared directly above me at the sky. The clouds were moving fast above me. Out of nowhere, a giant cloud covering the sky above me flew directly over me in the shape of an Angel. I gasped for breath and swallowed. I thought to myself, I did not just see that. Just as quickly as the doubt poured in it left abruptly. Another monstrous cloud Angel flew directly above me again. This time while laying down, I followed it with my neck as it flew past because I could not believe what I was seeing. At that moment, I panicked. God was real. I freaked out. I felt like I was in a video game. I felt like I was being watched. This could not be real! But out of nowhere this overwhelming calmness came over me. My tears subsided. I knew I was not alone and for whatever reason I God had heard my prayer. I got up a few minutes later to walk out of the cemetery. As I was exiting, my intuition told me to look to my right. There in the third row was a feather lying in front of a headstone. I went over to pick it up. This wasn’t just any feather. It was an owl feather. I knew in that moment that my life would be changed forever. You see, I love owls. I have owl stuffed animals, statues, pictures, you name it. My name on every social media platform is AngelOwlEyes because I look like a baby cherub who like the owl, has excellent intuition. The problem is I never listened to that intuition because I felt I was being judgmental. This upcoming spiritual journey would show me otherwise. It would show me that I was gifted with excellent intuition in order to listen to it, not brush it away. I continued now with the feather walking to exit the cemetery. I looked up to my right and saw that there was a Barn Owl statue on the porch of a person’s home perched there as if it was overlooking the cemetery and now directly looking at me. I smiled to myself. I felt whole but very anxious at the same time. A shift had happened. I knew that this was the beginning of my transformation and I accepted whatever was about to come before me with open arms.