HEARTBREAK, COVID AND A LITTLE BLACK BOOK
Before I get into the whole heartbreak during covid-19 situation I would like to give a little background into who I am and what I was really hoping for. I work as a bartender at a pretty awesome restaurant here in Canada. I enjoy what I do, love the energy of working with awesome people and engaging with different souls. But like with most routines it became repetitive. Work, gym, eat and sleep. I was sitting in the sauna early January and realized a brand new year has started. I need to book a trip and hop on a plane somewhere, anywhere! I just wanted to feel something different. I will remember when I stepped out of the sauna I noticed a little black book sitting on the floor in the locker room, I picked it up and put it in my gym bag. I did not open it but it looked somewhat of value and I was sure whoever lost it would want it back so I made sure to give it to front desk so they can toss it in the lost and found bin. So here comes our good friend by the name of Social Media, I'm sure you've all heard of her. I have had this guy on my instagram for a few months (not sure how long exactly) but he would randomly 'like' some of my photos and I would return the favour. Nothing serious. I decided to private message him and asked if I came to California (which is where he lives) would he like to spend time with me? He replied "yes of course I would love to spend time with you". His reply was so positive and genuine I couldn't help but feel happy. The area where I live it gets pretty cold during the winter months so the thought of feeling warm air on my skin in a city that I love gave me a blissful feeling. Now back to the guy. Immediately after that exchange we were talking and texting daily. The cute morning texts, the 3 hour conversations on the phone, learning each other, enjoying each other and both getting more and more eager to actually meet each other! Now I can't explain why I 'zero-d' in on this human. I just simply wanted to be happy. With him. I'm sure most of us can identify with those feelings of being excited about someone, being intrigued by someone, being physically attracted to someone, and getting to know someone on a deeper level. All those things came into play with this guy. We talked about anything and everything but one thing that always stuck out in my mind was his willingness to fight every millennial statistic and actually make this work. I'm not going to lie there were a few small disagreements along the way but it was always followed with an apology. I made the mistake of getting attached. Its 2020 I should be well aware of the rules by now but when those emotions take over that brain of yours its a wrap.
