Maxie Atreides
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(They/Them) Non-binary full-time air traffic controller, part time writer, musician, aviation enthusiast, and lego connoisseur.
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Love and Mortality
We are all subject to mortality, like it or not every single one of us has this fate in common regardless of age/race/gender etc. Unfortunately not all organic beings are created equal, as some suffer from various illnesses or tragedies sooner or more frequently than others. Call it destiny, karma, whatever you like, but life happens to very much be a game of chance. Theoretically there are things you can do/not do to prolong your life and give you a better chance of survival, but every one of us has the chance of drawing the death card on any given day. I have struggled with the concept of mortality for many years, even more so since 2020 as the mostly ignored intrusive thoughts only become larger and more demanding in my mind.
By Maxie Atreides4 years ago in Psyche
Toxic Productivity
I am terrified of being lazy. Or rather, of other people thinking I am lazy. This obsession started way back in middle school with the ridiculous after school program of GATE (Gifted and Talented Education), which was a program that selected kids someone decided were better than other kids and put them all together after school to do special “gifted” kid activities. As fun as it was, only now do I realize that this program didn’t actually do me any favors other than give me an undeserved superiority complex and make it so whenever I wasn’t naturally talented at something, I immediately decided it wasn’t for me. This attitude continued into high school when I took as many AP classes as possible and participated in outside activities continuing to believe if I was good at school, I could do anything. College was a similar experience, taking so many classes at once I blasted through it in 3 years. And now I work, I bounced around a little bit before finally landing my “dream job” as an air traffic controller. It’s amazing how fast you suddenly find yourself wearing adult shoes and adult clothes with baggage and responsibilities you didn’t realize were so heavy.
By Maxie Atreides4 years ago in Journal
