Mary Jane Radillo

Relationship Growth

Ever since I was a little kid, I’ve always been a pretty flitty character. Never really committing to anything and always giving up when things got a bit tough. Any hobby you can think of: piano, flute, soccer, basketball, violin, and basically any other sport or instrument. Truthfully, it‘s a major flaw of mine I have trouble admitting I have. I get bored extremely easily. I remember watching the Rihanna’s SavageXFenty online show and resonating with her when she said she gets bored of things AS she’s doing them. Maybe it’s because of my Sagittarius moon or because I blame every character flaw I have on my astrology chart, but I had hoped one day as I got older I would be able to become more intimate and trusting with people I consider my friends. But that just hasn’t been the case. If anything, it has gotten more difficult. But hey, it only makes life more interesting. I heard once that when life gets hard, you’ve leveled up. Maybe this is just another obstacle that I’ll have to push past. That being said, I would like to delve into why it is so hard for introverted people such as myself to open up and let people in and truly start planting seeds that will take root and form meaningful, lasting relationships. One reason I feel it’s so hard for us to truly show who we are, and most introverts don’t want to reveal this, but we‘re actually really calculated people. We think before we say and do while also realizing what words or actions would best benefit us. Now don’t get us wrong, we always try and do what’s best for our loved ones, as well. But like the saying goes, you can’t help others before you’ve helped yourself.