Manda Marie
Bio
My name is Amanda Gongora, I'm twenty-seven years old. I have three kids. My oldest is six going to be seven in May. My second is three going to be four in February. Now my youngest is six months. I have two girls and one boy.
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Staying Silent
Last night was the worse possibly night I had ever felt due to what's been going on in my little family. There was a time during my high school years I was very quiet and didn't speak my mind because I thought would hurt someone feelings. Though growing up and seeing a few of my friends and even my family do it, made me think I should speak my mind. Over time I realized I needed to be open with my mom and my dad, so I did. They knew that I wasn't going to stay quiet but what I didn't know is that my angry was getting the best of me because I had so much angry against my dad leaving me. Different situation, but moving on I knew with all that angry I couldn't hold back what needed to be said. When I got older that's when I had to do some confrontation with my dad and express how I felt when I was growing up. Seeing how things are going with my little family, and seeing that my SO is just taking orders from his dad who calls him and he does things for his dad. If I call he won't do the same for me like he does for his dad. What i also find petty is that tonight is his work Christmas party and it's family oriented and his dad told him is I go that his girlfriend won't go. It seems to me that they don't like confrontation about anything, that they live in a world that is just about them. I keep thinking that this is how I am, and I know our son will be outspoken and be able to talk to us unlike the way of his staying silent. I can't say that there are a lot of people who are comfortable with doing that. Now that my SO knows that he can be outspoken with me, he does try with his family but they automatically think he has angry and that's not true. I think he has angry pent up from him growing up and he really hasn't spoken his mind to his family, he was a very quiet type. Knowing that I haven't left him because his family just makes it seems that I'm so bad for him but yet when anyone dates a hispanic man or woman we all have to speak our mind.
By Manda Marie5 years ago in Humans
Heart-broken
Today has been very hurtful, heavy, upsetting, and it's left me heart broken. I can't say that this will probably be the last time I'm in a relationship ever, especially a three year long relationship. My heart hurts more than it can count, and I hate counting. Seeing my son happy and smiling is the greatest gift but knowing that his grandfather is refusing to have me at any family gatherings is such heart break because he is not at fault. My mind is full of questions because everything was fine one day then this stuff happens, which makes me think what the hell did I do? I wrote him a letter explaining how I feel because if we talk my tears will fall. I can't imagine that I live in a world that rejects my son because of me. Who does that? Why are people so cruel? It makes me think that I should have had my son somewhere else and then they wouldn't have to be bother by me. Funny how I'm writing this and I'm crying my eyes out because it hurts that someone would do this kind of thing. I don't like when no treats anyone the same and it's not fair for someone to stay around or let their child see how people can treat family. There's time when I want my mom in these moments but that relationship has been ruin because I decide to choose the love of my life. When my mom choose to not help me when I was being hurt along with my daughters it hurt even more, like how can a mother let their child get hurt.
By Manda Marie5 years ago in Humans
Holiday Time
With 2020 ending within a week and a half, I can't say that everyone has had good things happen lately. The pandemic was very unexpected and with lots of people not having work or anything to help families with food, rent, and things that people need for babies or really anything. I'm just saying having a baby during the pandemic was not easy for me either. I had to go into the hospital for my c-section, it was also a toss up because my significant other was about to be called out for riot patrol in Dallas. Luckily, he didn't have to go, which made me feel better because he wanted to be there when his son was born. Well we all can't say that everything that has happen has been good. Lot's of people have had very tough times and I congratulate you on how well you did this year even though it has been rough. I know families have been struggling and hoping to get things for your family. Don't worry I had the same issue back in March right before my son was born. Now I can't say that things are getting better but they are somewhat looking up. Knowing that Christmas is next week, my family and I have been packing up to get ready for our move to a bigger place and somewhere we like that's better than our apartments now. It's also been a little rocky with his family well I should say his dad, because that's all who is dealing with this.
By Manda Marie5 years ago in Families
Being a Burden
So let me begin from the beginning, I was in a abusive relationship who I had my second daughter with. Things weren't going so well but then I had to realized that staying in the relationship I would probably end up dead or worse my oldest daughter would have gotten hurt badly. I can't say things were the greatest but I started to drift away from him or try to find ways to make it work. Now I started to write about this because the place I'm at, I don't know if I should keep on trying or if I should stay and fight.
By Manda Marie5 years ago in Humans
