These thoughts are not kind.
Honest, yet kind, intimate, gracious, and raw...those are the requirements that I must start to impose with myself. I have been struggling to see my own worth and extend any kindness or grace to myself lately. I have noticed that I am angry and so downright mean in all my thoughts. I feel worthless and undeserving. I have experienced an abundance of trauma throughout my life. I harbor tons of grief, sadness and pure despair. I do not generally trust or rely on other people. Through the recent events of life mixed with remembrance dates from past trauma, I have allowed myself to fall into unfavorable habits. These habits have given my negative thoughts a bold presence in my mind. They speak much louder than any positive intuition. My brain has filled itself with anxiety, fear, and depressive ideals. I absolutely hate being in this state. How have I actually landed here once again?
