layla welsh
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i have been writing since i was a 8, hoping to become an author, now at 17 just wanting to express my feelings using an outlet so many have given me.
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Layla welsh English period 5 08/26/21 Lost I am lost, I have to wear clothes that overflow onto the ground. Dragging behind me like a ball and chain. Lost because I realize that I am not the person who wears big baggy clothes. The bitter taste of embarrassment resonates in my mouth as the other mothers eyes burn into my soul, their eyes filled with pity. I ran to my father, his arms hiding me from the world. The smell of cigarettes on his breath is disgusting yet somehow feels like home. I tell him “i'm going to get laughed at.” he sighs knowing he does it for my protection and yet i still feel lost. I can hear the laughs of other kids sear into my brain as I already know when I go to school tomorrow I am going to be lost. The baggy clothes soon feel tight around my neck as I walk into school. The kids in my class look at me, their eyes scalding my skin. Each kid slowly starts talking to another thinking I can't hear their remarks. Those remarks have slowly shaped me into the self conscious person I am today. But that's not who i want to be.
By layla welsh3 years ago in Confessions
The letter
Katherine, I am currently writing to you because I can't seem to get this off of my mind. I wish you could understand the immense pain that you have caused me over the last 17 years. I wish you could feel the hurt that I have felt. The giant hole in my heart that was created by the lack of having my mother. I pushed myself to be the best person I could be and I fell down a lot of times. But you know what. I picked myself back up. I pushed myself over and over and over again, to become the person that deserved better. You and I have a lot in common, and this bothers me so much. I don't ever want to be like you. And that is such a shitty thing to think. Isn't it our job as children to see you parents as our mentors. Isn't it our job as your children to want to be like you. Oh wait, isn't it the parents jobs to be good enough role models that your children should be like you. I guess that's where I become the fool because you were never really there to be a role model. I have never been so angry at myself for pushing a relationship, wishing nothing but success and happiness from it. I have never felt such disgust in myself because I let a stranger so easily in my life. Because let's be honest, you're a stranger. I don't understand why I ever thought it was a great idea to reach out to you if it took you 14 years to even realize that I am still your daughter. That I still want a relationship with the person who left. You know I fought so hard just to learn that you are the same person 14 years ago. I can't believe that I ever let you into my heart. Just for you to break it like everybody else. I am going to be a better mother.
By layla welsh4 years ago in Confessions
