Laurel Jean Evergreen
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A lover and a fighter. A Lorax and a Grinch. Somewhat of a Jane doe. lost bambi
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The Little Spoon
The little engine that thought she couldn’t A letter for anyone who sees me This is the boring and grim tale of my search for love and acceptance. I looked too closely into a telescope I couldn’t seem to find. I went in to seek an answer for why I’ve always thought I should just die. A journey to the center of my mind’s eye. A spiral of euphoric kind. This is a simplified version of why I have been scared to choose a solid path or course for my life. A story of why I would choose love and family over fame and power, at least in this timeline. I believe I have found my lost will to love my life exactly as it is. I don’t want to look better to others, I’ve chosen to be better to others. I faced some real seemingly damming monsters in there, but I had a little help from my friends. I don’t seem to know or care if I’m right or wrong or up or down. I just know that I’ve found a genuine appreciation for life that feels like an awakening of some kind. A version of a noah who decided to build a redemption instead of a literal or exclusive ark. Matching people up, delegating fate, building bunkers, searching for treasure or eternal life, capturing flags, scoring, scaring, sending and opening letters ~ seem to be jobs for only the fairest of mind. I think I have committed countless sins and couldn’t see any path of enlightenment or heavenly acceptance. I chose to dust those fears away and see that I’ve been plagued by fear. Fear of judgment. Alas, my journey of self discovery lead me to see that I’ve been a hypocrite. A judge of others when I’ve no room to judge. A priss. A katniss, A child. Ignorant. Cursing my very own gift of life. Cursing the gods, my mom and my dad and my step mom and big brothers and sisters and little brothers and sisters and friends and teachers.
By Laurel Jean Evergreen 3 years ago in Confessions
