Lajuan Billingslea

Stop Hurting ME

truth...We had our first real disagreement. It was over a misunderstanding and now, we have a somewhat understanding that will only solidify with time. but wait ...The hurt felt was so different that I know if it were not for my past...my triggers...I was never angry...just hurt. I could not imagine living in a home with him and not breathe...we did and it seemed like a month of pause my entire world shattered, I was brought back from my fairy tale...this is real-Lajuan-this one will beat you with words-he does not care for anything that interest you makes it know and does not participate with anything without complaints...lots of complaints-HE is going to constantly beat you with his words. He does his best work with his WORDS. Just fuck me. Sadly-I have attached myself with someone that is controlling-yet thoughtful. HE is anger -travelings-yet only when he is alone does he have pleasurable experiences. It's his competitiveness-he is extremely critical of himself and others. But, he intrigues me and most of times my days filled with us always doing something together-him sulking over I don't know what, but then he chills or was that an act. Lately, I am on high alert. It will be with words...be careful. I am thinking of everything-he is tense and only relaxed when he is listening to music or is he? Then there are the times he is with others-he seems to worry that the other person is going to complain; so, he does and me-I have lived with the DEVIL....lately-I've been in my head and warning my heart. you have another one and this one will use words.