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What Does it Take to Be Successful?

Cover image-Wonders x Andrea Wan With what power do we move through our spaces when we feel like we are failing or falling through the cracks? Is there some source, think Atlantis power of the former Kings, that our peers and celebrities have tapped into, that allows them to pick themselves back up and re-assert themselves when they feel like all hope is lost? In simple reality the answer is no. Unfortunately due to the complexities of human nature, there is no simple answer for this question because while the answers we think we are looking for are not directly accessible via flying machine or single blue pill, there is more truth to this idea than the world at large gives credit. Looking back to where I was a year ago, my life has changed in so many ways. In truth, I am not anywhere near as happy as I was at that time. I had two jobs that kept me working around the clock, bills paid months in advance, and money to spend on myself and others. So I sit alone in my apartment, 2:00 a.m., unemployed and nervous as hell to move forward, especially during this global pandemic! Reports come from every angle encouraging me to fear my body, my neighbors, my country, and myself. There is no right or wrong at this moment in time, so the rights we believe individually galvanize us into believing that if not everyone is doing things like me, they are failing or we are failing or the country is failing! (I do believe in some ways the country is failing however…) The prospect of engaging anything other than sitting at home and not spending money is one that, for a lack of better words, devastates me. I love to socialize and explore, and most of all, make money to spend money! This feeling has been overwhelming me from before the pandemic started and I hit a wall where I am truly having to ask myself, what do I do now? Where do I access power now that I feel my light is dimming? How do I make money when everyone is applying for online jobs and I have the qualifications of a 6+ year food service worker? The incense and candles I once trusted to get me through stressful nights are burned out, and I have resorted to researching Youtube home workout videos to exhaust energy and erase my FUPA in 2 weeks more times than I can count this month. The FUPA is large and I can either dedicate myself to the cause or love her for who she is (I do love my lil FUPA though, so I am accepting of the reality where she stays with me forever).