Kayla Deer

My Heart Belongs to You

July 17th, 2022 Sunday 9:20 PM Dear Diary, It’s been almost two months since the Letifer-Flu was unleashed on the world. I still think about how naïve we all had been in the beginning… thinking it wasn't a big deal. I feel sick to my stomach when I think back to laying on the couch with Luke in our living room giggling about how the lockdown was kind of cool. We had been so excited to work from home because it meant we’d get to spend a bunch of quality time together. Life was so carefree then. All that mattered was what we would make for dinner and what movie we would choose to watch. Only two months ago I was warm and safe snuggled to Luke’s side; no genuine worries about what the future held. I miss his warmth and the peace being in his arms brought me. I know I haven’t written to you in a long-time diary… but I have to tell you that I’m afraid Luke is gone and I won’t ever physically feel the warmth, love, and peace his presence brings me in this lifetime again. I don’t want to write this, but I’m scared if I don’t release the story running through my mind constantly, it will eat me alive before this virus does.