Julia

My Dreams

I always dreamed to travel to Paris,France every since I was a Little girl to even get married there and go on my honeymoon there. But for me dreams don't ever come true. I'm almost 40 and raising 7 children and my Income isn't too up to part either. I always end up believing and something always ruins it to the core but then I find myself believing until it's a cycle of disappointment and regret for feeling and thinking that it'll happen but I still feel hope of going one day. Paris,France what a place to visit... I would watch people on social media having photos and videos of they trip to my dream and on You Tube I always find tears in my eyes and don't realize it until the middle of the video that i'm crying. I honestly Envy those who lived out my dream going to Paris and getting married there and etc. I hate that I have Anxiety and fear... Meaning I am afraid of planes because i'm terrified of heights and i've seen too many news reporting and movies about plane crashes and deaths from them and just can't then if not that the Pandemic of the rules you have to follow in order to go over seas and I don't wanna deal with that and the fact that I don't have a Passport and that I don't wanna be alone. I would want my family to come with but she's sickly and so is my only daughter and well my other children are just well not the type to travel (I have 7 children btw...).