Desmond M. Johnson

The things you do for love.

What's better than love? No really. What's better than having a person you could envision spending the rest of your life with? Someone you could travel the world, spend holidays, and have kids with? When we boil life down, it's ultimately about finding your purpose and/or your partner. If you're not shooting to be with the likes of Steve Jobs, Steven Tyler, or The Rock then maybe you'd prefer a much more conservative lifestyle; nevertheless, in the end, everyone wants someone. I was 15 when I met the mother of my child and at the time I had no conception of what real love was or how it may feel coming from a space of casual dating. From the time I was 15 to 20 years old (and still sometimes to this day), I was in a back and forth fight with my own ego and emotions about myself and unknowingly slowly causing the decay of love I was supposed to be nurturing and sharing with the newest member of my family and mother of my daughter. Young love is never easy and once you're 10 ft deep under a wave of emotions you're drowning in the thought of always having that person around then disappointment always ensues with frustration and anger when you or that person no longer want to "do this". My ego and need to feel in control lead me into a situation with my daughter's mom where I not only made an ass of myself but completely disrespected her intelligence and place in my life.