Crystal Adorno

Lesson Learned

Ever since I moved to the Bay Area things have not been going as I had anticipated. I imagined myself in an ultra sexy apartment somewhere in the Mission with roommates that were smart, cool and just everything I aspire to be. I don’t know why that mattered when I was looking for a place to live but I’ll be the first to admit that sometimes I don’t have my priorities straight. I guess I saw other friends who had made this leap of faith and I was inspired to try on a new life too, I thought it would be the same for me but situation after situation I’m starting to feel like maybe I made the wrong choice. One thing is certain, San Francisco is not making it easy for me but I refuse to go back to the Bronx with my tail between my legs, to a mother that’ll be thrilled to say ‘I told you so.’ The idea of accepting defeat is not in my DNA, I’m not built for admitting when I’m wrong so I choose to stay here, where I feel lost but at least I can wallow alone. Here, no one knows me and I’ll just have to fake it until I make it, I guess, if that's even a thing.