Charlene rovisini

NEVER SAY NEVER

It was a Wednesday afternoon and I felt at my lowest money was tight I was behind in my bills my social life was none existent, my relationships were..mmm well what can I say yh there's nothing to say I just felt my worst even though I give my everything to everything I do in life from work to friends, family and strangers. I found peace most of my life but as the years went by after every fail and mistake I made life did start to hack away at my soul so it felt. I still tried to shine everyday regardless of what life threw at me. Well this one particular afternoon I was called to the office.  It was like saved by the bell the tv programme I use to watch as a kid. Laughs aside after I was slaving away cleaning day in day out fingers sore to the bone id had enough. I no there's a lot worst in life that could happen but I felt alone even though I felt ok deep down there was a gap, something missing a feeling of not quite belonging no matter how hard I tried to figure it out, the many faces I put on or how many times I tried to find the courage to smile when I was crying deep inside. So you can imagine the anxiety I got as my name was called threw the mic but as I got to the office my boss Terry told me to take a seat. He said to me “iv got some sad news for you” me thinking iv been sacked and that was all I needed in life right now. He continued “iv just received a call to say that your grandmother has passed away and you needed to go home right away”. My grandmother was the only woman I was ever actually close to, the one person that understood me was no longer with me I wasn't sure whether to speak talk cry or scream all I could think of was getting home to my mother and father. I got home to what seemed a pretty calm environment it didn't seem morbid at all if anything it seemed quite normal.