Bushra Shahriar
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A 22-year-old student studying at Keele University - writer and poet.
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I had a panic attack again
So, I had another panic attack. It came out of nowhere and I remembered I usually write about what I experienced; I know it helps some people and it helps me track how frequent they are. Ironically, I can't remember where I wrote the last one or when it happened but it was definitely over 6 months ago. I get at least a handful of intrusive thoughts every day, usually, ones that the demon in my head knows will upset me. Memories of when people did me dirty, memories of something someone close to me said, events that resulted in me becoming numb enough to take the fall to stop an argument, memories of people destroying everything that's meant to make a birthday special. I have no control over them. And I relive them every day as if they just happened. And it's not even one isolated thought; one happens and then everything the demon can possibly conjure up will follow. I haven't been to a doctor about it, but after the attack this week, I need to get some help at some point.
By Bushra Shahriar6 years ago in Psyche
Why is it a problem if I want to 'cleanse' my body?
I have nothing to do during quarantine aside from finishing my degree, relaxing, eating and sleeping as much as I want. Whilst I'm not working, I switch on Youtube and watch whatever I feel like at the time; sometimes true crime stories, stories of missing people and food videos.
By Bushra Shahriar6 years ago in Longevity
Why Do I Need Constant Reassurance?
I’ve had it tough for over a decade and it’s not been very easy to deal with. People come and go, that’s a given. People do stupid things and don’t realise the effects it can have on others. I’m sure I’ve been one of those people at some point.
By Bushra Shahriar8 years ago in Humans
Stigma Reduction Can Have Different Outcomes
Things have been said in the past few months that really got me wound up about the different types of stigma reduction. It consists of raising awareness, including being comfortable talking about the topic and normalization, including an acceptance of the topic.
By Bushra Shahriar8 years ago in Psyche
I Didn't Ever Cry for Attention
So, I've been told a couple of times that people think I cry because I want attention from everyone who breathes. That's honestly the funniest assumption I've heard about me, and I've been called a lot of things ranging from your average "bitch" behind my back to people calling me a bomb-carrying "terrorist" to my face. And I may be a bitch (I'm not a terrorist), but I don't cry for attention.
By Bushra Shahriar8 years ago in Humans
Your Birthday Isn't Important
I have a poor relationship with my birthday. It doesn’t mean a thing to me; it never did. No one ever really cared for mine, apart from my family, of course. No one went out of their way to make sure I was remembered. And I didn’t like telling anyone because to me, surely, if I was important to any extent, I and my birthday would be remembered without question. I get it, people forget things, but my mum made a list of all my old primary school “friends” (it’s complicated) and their birthdays so we made sure I didn’t forget them. But everybody else was apparently remembered and celebrated by their friends, so why not me?
By Bushra Shahriar8 years ago in Humans
Words
I love words.They mean everything.Your words can fix, your words can heal,As long as you know what’s true and what’s real. “As long as you know what’s true and what’s real”,Funny, isn’t it?How people lie and are untrue.You never really know in the moment,Until it suddenly hits you
By Bushra Shahriar8 years ago in Poets
