Britts world
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Pain from within
Compartmentalizing the pain was easy as my flashes of a once evergreen field slowly turned to dust, now survival is a must. As my heart dries up and my souls turns black will my green color ever come back? Shades of purple to remind me of my struggle. Shades of blue for all the tears cried. Red for the happy Me that was never born but constantly whispering I’m alive. Hiding in the pitch black slowly turns to a sheer cloak over my sorrows. I am no longer invisible! I am for once being seen in all my beauty as a whole showing off all the holes that make up my shell. My beautiful yet fragile and scarred shell ready but scared to leave her own hell. She steps out of the cracks and quickly withers back, she is playing a game of tag not wanting to be tagged back. Back in the darkness where all that’s left is to harness, harness and attempt to control the pain. The pain is a vortex within my caves in chest. I slowly breath in and I feel the pain slash my chest saying don’t let anything out. As I exhale my eyes close and She returns, returns back into her many holes that life has created for her but she has never debated whether to let them continue to devour her. She allows the suffering to take over as her mind is buffering to a conclusion that just ends up being a substitution never a resolution.
By Britts world5 years ago in Poets
Beautiful people
Beautiful people From our highs to our lows to when our self-esteem needs a tow. A tow from breaking down in the middle of the race, oh how I look at at how far I’ve come from that place. I used to see splashes of black, streaks of red, how waking up is what I used to dread. Living is breathing, dying is to dream and depression is a little in between. Between a nightmare and a breath, living only to expect death. Death at my door, let me put on lipstick it’s time to score. I tried to pull myself up and slowly I grew out of this rut. I became a rising tree from a slowly dying, but alive little seed. I grew from my pain knowing that what I went through wouldn’t be in vain. I push and I push, here I am close to who I need to be, no longer hiding behind the OLD me. This is just the beginning of my recovery!
By Britts world5 years ago in Poets
Dear Anxiety
Dear anxiety, Why won’t you let me be you came with sadness making a home inside me. You rearranged it so happiness was hard to reach, I opened up my door and there you both were depression and anxiety standing in front of me. I face my fears, I’ve been running for too long can’t you see. I got bruises on my feet, scrapes all over me. At times I wanna be six feet under away from the voices that sound like thunder, I hide underneath my bed from the monsters inside my head as I sleep with the misery I cuddle in my bed. Can’t you see it’s hard for me, yeah it’s hard for me and it would hard to be me. I try to lock my door but you slip beneath the cracks as my scream brakes the glass, now it’s all over I can’t hide anymore. I try and run again, but I lost all my friends, so I have no one to turn to. Dear anxiety can you give me a break, I promise to play with you on all of my breaks. Breaks from reality in to my little world cuz your my only friend that sees how my mind twirls.
By Britts world5 years ago in Poets
