Truly Beautiful
I am still in awe of how God moves in my life.
I recently made the decision to rededicate my life to Christ and get baptised again. It was completely random, first time at a new church, didn't know anyone outside of my sister, brother in law, and two friends. I had resigned from my job a few days prior (not by choice), I felt lost and scared. I'm a single mom of 3, how will I provide for my kids? How will we keep our home, what will we do for food? I was dealing with dibilitating anxiety because of it, I couldn't even enjoy my brother in laws birthday at restaraunt without having a full blown anxiety attack on how I was going to pay for it. Jesus isn't a new thing in my life, I grew up learning about him, having a relationship with him. I had people in my life that still prayed for me and my children. But I didn't realize that working for the man that I had been working for had isolated me, I worked so much, I didn't have time for anything else. I wasn't in the Word daily, I took my eyes off Jesus and started focusing more on monetary gain than actually living. It was just another way to put a bandaid over the hurt that I never dealt with. And let me tell you, if you don't deal with it, there will come a point where it will overflow. I had put bandaid, over bandaid on my heart, tried to control everything I could fix it, and if I didn't know how, I would learn how. Until something happened in my life that I couldn't control and everything spiralled. Again. This was not the first time something happened to me that completely rocked my world, and there was nothing that I could physically do about it.
