Arianna Rose

Pretty & Motivated

I am a 15 year old girl who suffers from post tramatic stress disorder among a few other mental illnesses and this a piece of my long story. When PTSD comes up people think about military dads that come home changed, broken, but it can be so much more than that. In my short life I have lived I’ve made it through being molested and raped, physically and verbally abused by the people who I called my parents. Watched drug deals and angry people. Heard sirens and called the rescue teams to help save the ones who were supposed to keep me safe. Parents aren’t supposed to tear you down and scare you, but sometimes kids can be placed in the wrong hands but I can tell you right now there is not one stuggle in your life that you can’t find a healthy solution to without enough knowledge. Knowledge you can gain from reading and researching, become familiar with your demons and tame them. This disorder isn’t always easy to cope with, it’s hard to focas on school and boys and making it out of high school with the rest of my graduating class to be a role model to the 4 younger of my 5 siblings despite not knowing where I’ll come up with the money to pay for drivers ed. or college afterword. But that’s just a part of life and we can’t just sit in self pity because you will get stuck there. I try to breathe when I start shaking in class trying to forget a scary thought that pops into my head when I see a guy with a hat or a pair of purple pajama pants some girl is wearing or even just a soothing lamp in the guidence counsilors office that brings me back to these horrible times and almost sufficates me in the memories. How am I supposed to read about World War I when I got World War III’s beginning on my mind?