Heart

why dont you trust me ....

Do you think I can leave you for anybody

After all my sacrifices and all the sacrifices am still making .....

Are u insecure about me ?

Is it because of the way I behave towards you sometimes ...

Y can't you just get it through your thick skull that I LOVE YOU

And nobody can replace you.

Do you know am also scared of loosing you ..

But am not insecure ,so why are you ...?

Crying again for what's not mine ,tired of being the bone of content for little stupid manners ... filled up with so many emotions I can't just express ...feel like screaming...drained vibes ..just lost my appetite...and your still smiling not feeling remorse for your actions

Still me carrying the cross ,still me dropping the tears ,you so chill about the whole situation, don't know what to feel ,if it's guilt ot had I know !!!

spat on my emotions like it meant nothing to you , behaving so sendless on how I feel ,only happy when things are going tour way ,left me at an emotional breakdown period,but to the outside world were perfect,not pretending on how I feel ,but just wish sometimes u I'll behave the way I want you to ...you know I didn't need much from you ..just a peck of the forehead and a tight hug with you saying everything will be okay ..is it too much to ask !!!

You know your the most Carin person have meet on earth ..it am down you ask me how I feel and I tell you am okay ..not knowing on how I feel like getting buried at dat. Moment ..

YH !!! walk away like you always do ,just. Made a promise to hide the teras,bring back the old character..maybe fake the smiles and plays if I could ...must I cry before you know somethings wrong with me ...sometimes I feel your not worth my tears .I fought a good fight to get you and trust me when I say .. you don't know how dat feels

What if I had left you in the middle of everything .. choose them over you ..do you think I'll still have constant mood swings ..you can't handle my emotions running away and planning to come back when another has put a smile on. my face .FYI dats not how it meant to be

Dying period..so many things going on ..if you know you can't be there for me now .don't bother cause there no need .. some times you say you feel like being alone ..and I respect your decision..but what if that's wen I need you the most ..I get to displease myself and please you in situations when I need you the most

Not crying anymore ...just running out of words to say when I know there's so much to be said .... can't wait to leave ...and can't deny the fact I'll miss you but ...NVM am not sure your worth it ..now am talking out of anger cause your not still here ..The weather is cold the arena is lonely..just me a pen and paper for expressions

Different motivation coming from different angles .. drifting from the main idea of all this .. Trying to find myself..but still not working out ..am perfect for me 🤦💔dont even know wat am saying..

Not expecting much from you after all this .. knowing how you feel about the whole situation not trying to get you angry but just trying to let you know how I feel ...like u said my "EMOTIONS" your still gone not knowing if your just tired of the whole situation..just me in a cold bed no arms to wrap around me once more a pen and paper...lost in thoughts buh I know ur still mine can't let you go now cause am already attached..buh can't promise things will b thesame ..still love you buh wish you were here Even though thingsa aren't okay 🤕💔