The Train of Change

The Train of Change

It’s fall, and I am on a train. Through the window, I can see people passing by, so I reflect on them.

I saw this guy looking at me as he waited for his train, and I heard;

“You could fail”

“What about your studies?”

“You stayed home today?”

“I don’t see you making any change!”

…

These are words I used to hear over and over from people, and when I self-talk.

As the train moved, old memories flowed as they were recent.

Each stop sent me deeper into memory, and each departure sent me into an overflow of thoughts

When I stepped out of the train, the flood stopped, and my usual amnesia came back.

It’s still fall, but it’s a new day

I am on the train

I see people passing by through the window

Old memories are back - I live the past once again

I think about the time I negatively self-talk

I stepped out of the train, and my usual amnesia came back

It’s another day in fall

I am on the train

I see people passing by through my window

I think of the old days, and how they ended

I stepped out of the train - I stopped thinking

It’s summer

I am on the train

Through my window, I see people passing by

I reached my destination

I stepped out of the train for the first time and didn’t look back