The right decision

What do you do when you have choices in front of you and you have no freaking idea what you should be doing? After all this is your first life and you have no experience of the age you are living.

The idea of taking right decision freaks me out because how am I suppose to understand that the decision I take today is going to shape my future tomorrow. It dreads me out because this also affects the people around me in one way or another. While I am understanding the affect it will have on me it might affect differently on the people around me. And I have no idea what it will give me tomorrow.(it : my decision today)

So basically having options to choose from while you are just trying to act like an adult while you are not really the one is suffocating. I am going to regret about not choosing another option in the future anyway. But I will definitely find a reason to reason with my regret which I do in the present too to handle my emotional state anyway. And the reason above is what I am giving myself right now while I am taking blind faith on my decision today. I am tired and I don't know what's happening but it is definitely here and I am living this chaos that I have with myself.

I will work on this and try to make it so that I took the right decision. But is it wrong of me to think that those who take the other option I did not choose made the wrong choices or they reach the wrong result so I can see it in the future and realise that I took the right decision and be happy. That must be how the villains think and I am acting like a villain right? But is it wrong to even think like it for split of a second. Well I don't know.

Even with all this banter with myself I am making a decision I don't even know if I am happy with because it feels like I would feel the same even if I take another option. So I will find the reasons to work on it so it feels like worth it. I am going to live with it anyway.

What must other humans that are sharing this planet with me feel about when they have to choose between the two options? Do they ever make the right decision? Do they feel suffocated like I am feeling and feeling scared everyday like I am about if the decision I am making is the right decision.

What exactly is the right decision? Is there even a right decision?