Reigniting the spark on my journey back to writing

Having neglected my love for writing and desire to express myself for so long, I've finally decided to reignite that spark. I’m tired of procrastination, a habit that has turned me into someone who struggles to find peace in the things I once sought.

Each morning, I wake up feeling lost in thought, caught up in the overwhelm of life, forgetting the purpose I once set to find peace in solitude. I let myself drift in delusion, fixating on dreams that remain unrealized.

Sometimes, I’m paralyzed by indecision, unsure of the best path forward to reach my goals. And I’ve come to realize that I can’t keep being so hard on myself.

A recent visit to the hospital opened my eyes. My blood pressure was high, caused by overthinking, the diagnosis also revealed malaria and typhoid, requiring treatment. Despite all of this, I was having insomnia, my mind racing as I tried to figure out how to turn my thoughts into action for the greater good.

I often find comfort in the voices of my family, friends, and loved ones. Their words of encouragement have helped ease my stress, reminding me how to live without overburdening myself and giving me a reason to smile.

On the 23rd of this month, I celebrated the end of my national service in Nigeria. It brought a flood of thoughts about my next steps looking for a job, generating fresh ideas, and developing a habit of sharing those ideas with the world.

I reflected on my achievements from March 2024, when I was called to the Biggest Bar in Africa as a lawyer after years of struggle in my studies. That moment of success stands in stark contrast to the confusion and doubt I felt throughout my service year.

When I couldn’t decide where my passion truly lay or what my purpose was, I neglected my love for writing, focusing instead on distractions that didn’t serve me. I remember attending countless trainings but failed to put any of them into practice.

Today, I woke up with a new resolve. I am committed to making my writing dreams come true by becoming more focused, surrounding myself with like-minded people, and dedicating myself to reading, learning, and most importantly, writing.