Nothing At All Happened

Natalie Goldberg's Writing Down the Bones Deck prompts - "Nothing at all happened." Go, ten minutes.

Overthinking kills your happiness? Is that true? I know that to worry about something happening is kind of like that. We can worry that something is going to happen, and then it doesn't.

Worry causes stress and is not good for our health. I do this. I worry about something bad happening that doesn't, and then there is relief. Why worry about it in the first place? It feels like I can't help it.

My dad died on my tenth birthday after falling off a roof while working as a welder. Yesterday, my ten-year-old granddaughter was home when my 75-year-old husband went up on the roof. I knew he was doing that. My mind quickly went to it may have been a bad time to leave.

Should I cancel my physical therapy appointment? Then I said what was bothering me, and I was then able to let it go. My hubby is stubborn, and he has the attitude that it is better to do it himself, as he knows what needs to be done. Every year, I worry that something will happen.

I got home and actually had forgotten all about it. I went and had my nails done after my physical therapy appointment. I think that helped. Then I got lunch and went to the art gallery to check on the cancer fundraiser I am working on.

When I got home, my granddaughter approached me and filled me in. My husband asked me not to scare our granddaughter or make her wimpy. I am assuming he considers my fear to be wimpy. He may never understand my trauma. I know that overthinking kills my happiness while I do it!

Pretty nails helped me forget the overthinking, and nothing at all happened.

Natalie Goldberg's Writing Down the Bones Deck prompts - I met someone and nothing at all happened. I bought a raffle ticket and a goldfish and ... I climbed a mountain, hoping for understanding, and...

In a sense this topic is a step backward into the vast unknown. Can we bare nothing happening? So much doesn't happen - I'm laughing --it's true. What do we think something should always happen, occur, result? Where, what, how did nothing at all happen?

I met someone, and nothing at all happened. That happens all of the time. My sister Mary introduced me to her women's group that meets weekly--as her sister. No one asked about that, rather quietly accepted that we are sisters and welcomed me.

I always think that I will be asked or she will be asked about how we are sisters. We have been friends for 44+ years, and sometime early in that process, we became sisters. It is common in our culture. I took care of her children and she mine. Her baby went to college with me more than a few times.

I bought a raffle ticket and nothing happened. A pretty common experience for me. I buy raffle tickets every year, and most of the time, nothing happens. Except for one year, I won a handgun. I planned to use it for target practice, and after one session, I lost interest.

I bought a goldfish and nothing happened. I did buy goldfish at one time, thinking that would replace my children's wants for a pet. It did not. Goldfish are not the same as a dog or a cat. We ended up with a cat, and it kept bothering the fish, so we gave them away to someone without a cat.

Can I bear nothing happening? Yes, I prefer life without trauma or drama. I have had enough of both in my life.

I never expect gifts when training, but this past week I was given a t-shirt, a long-sleeved shirt, and a pair of sweatpants. Granted, they advertise their program, and it was still unexpected and nice to receive. Then I was given a bracelet.