An ode to imposter syndrome

An ode to imposter syndrome

Self-worth and self-belief are the two sides of the same coin. We all have seeds of self-doubt planted within us, either from our inner limiting beliefs, trauma or negative projections of other people’s opinions. It is hilarious how we place our self-esteem in the hands of others with ease and then find ourselves in the labyrinth of negative perceptions of ourselves or dwindling confidence in our abilities. Life is a paradox, to heal you must be hurt, amid the most massive of pain and breakdown lies the most eminent breakthrough you would ever receive. If you want confidence and faith in your abilities, you must swim through the turbulent ocean of self-doubt and insecurity.

While it is a speakeasy to preach the idea of having innate confidence in oneself, it is harder when you try to profess the truth of gaining self-confidence in your competence. It is a deal that costs you a lot- your people-pleasing tendencies, negative people who put you down, your lack of discipline and most importantly your comfort. The plunge into the unknown, leaving behind what feels comfortable and diving into the waters of uncertainty is the only way to develop a reckoning sense of self that fosters unshakeable.

I am not good enough, the accomplishment I achieved is a sheer matter of luck and a larger spectrum of events that worked in my favour. Oh! I am so not worthy of where I am today, it is a sheer array of fortuitous efforts that I put in. Do you witness yourself saying this a lot? Let's be brutally true, we all at some point in our lives have told this to ourselves, no matter how successful we are and how many achievements we have strived in our stance of existence. The sheer audacity that we possess to be the best version of ourselves at a given point in time and yet compel our inner dialogue to negate our abilities.

Desire that lies forbidden seeks its redemption from the soul,

To be in love with thee or to be complacent, is a question that haunts the main goal.

To have an insane amount of confidence in my abilities, to be at the top of my game, to fall in love with every ounce of my being. I have always strived to be the best version of myself, to fall in love with every crevice of my soul. I yearn to become the girl who loves living, who dances with grit and who has the magnanimity of being undeniable in every realm of my being. But truth be told, there are often instances in my being that propel me to fall into the vicious cycle of self-doubt and imposter syndrome. If you find yourself in similar nuances of existence, here are certain steps that I undertake to remind myself of my worth

. 1) Journal, Mediate and Process your emotions- While it is therapeutic to vent your emotions in the presence of your loved ones, you have to realise in the end you are reinforcing the negative beliefs that you hold about yourself. Try to process and handle your negative spirals, that is how you build accountability and trust in yourself to handle situations. I am not saying that sharing your pain with your loved ones is wrong, but if you always rely on something external to fix you, the ability of self-belief will never foster its essence in your spirit.

2)Gain back your locus of control- If your way of feeling worthy is other people’s appreciation and praise of how endearingly you have performed and stridden in your strife, your sense of self is hanging by a thread that could lead onto the befoulment of your self-perception within a matter of seconds. Stop seeking validation from others and start trusting your abilities. Learn to decide for yourself and it's okay even if it doesn't work. Because in the end you are responsible for your circumstances and there is no scope for self-blame or victimization.

3) Develop an alter ego- Whenever you feel like you are underconfident or unworthy of the people who forge their presence in the same room, visualize your best and most confident version, and how would they deal with the same situation. As you visualize, step into that version of you. When you actively force yourself to put yourself in situations that make you uncomfortable and embrace the alter ego that you create for yourself, before you even realize it, the carefully curated version of yourself becomes your reality.

4)Train your mind- Our thoughts become our reality, so if you constantly belittle yourself and engage in negative inner dialogue, you attract more situations, people and opportunities that reinforce that belief. But if you reprogram your mind and actively remind yourself of your goodness and your power, it will manifest opportunities of abundance. A compelling method of doing this affirmations

Some of my favorites are

1)My name is spoken amongst the most successful people in the world

2)I am safe and secure in who I am and nobody’s opinion, worth, energy, achievement or progress can diminish who I am

3)I am always at the right place, at the right time and on the right path.

4)I am strong, confident, beautiful and I trust in my abilities

It can be overwhelming and daunting to overcome imposter syndrome but proactive endeavours of reminding ourselves of our might and having faith in our journey will always lead us into the radiance of our excellence.

In instilling pride in how far you strode upon,

Have faith in the quest that reveals excellence on the path along.

-Hridya

What resonated with you the most? Let me know in the comments below