Raw Journal Entries of an Everyday Traveller - 003 & 004

5/12/2016 Kelowna 11:34 PM -2°

"Well an entry didn't happen yesterday as I was up on Big White enjoying time with the gang. We went to the pub, drank too much and enjoyed ourselves. Mae cooked an amazing dinner also that Ben didn't join us for. He's still apparently effected by the breakup and can't be around me long enough without feeling awkward. I don't know what his go is, but I'm not buying into the act. He's only sad now because he can tell I'm happy and moved on. It's exactly what happened the last time we broke up. I was a mess because he seemed so happy and I hated that, this time it's the opposite and it isn't my issue anymore. I tried way too hard for that guy!

Other news is that I might (key word, might) be moving into a place on Monday. I just have to go and see the place on Saturday and if I like it, I can move in Monday. It's such a surreal feeling knowing I could actually be able to unpack my bags after over a month of living out of my backpack. I can store food and drinks and relax in my own space—even if it is sharing with five to eight other people. I guess we'll just have to wait and see.

Annnnnd, other news again. Brodie and Dan came back to the hostel today which was a complete surprise! A lovely one though. I did already begin to miss them and their energy around the place. They really are great quality. We spent the night on the couches with everyone and the last hour, Brodie laid with his head on my lap whilst I stroked his head. It was so so nice giving affection again to someone."

7/12/2016 Kelowna 2:58 AM -8°

We're going to technically count this as an entry for the 6th because I haven't slept yet. So today I had a really good talk to Eve and Susie about Ben and the fact he's being so stubborn and juvenile with the breakup. When I go to visit our mutual friends, he refuses to either see them at the same time, or if he's already there, he leaves. He doesn't interact with me at all and I'm still blocked on social media.

So I'm rather drunk right now after a game or two (definitely two) of Stack Cup with everyone here, and I had a little kiss with Brodie before, and now, I hate to admit it, but I'm waiting up to see him before bed which is sooo pathetic because I'm so tired I should just go to sleep and see him tomorrow (technically today) but I just don't want to yet. They're leaving again tomorrow, so this is the true goodbye before they leave for America, and even though Brodie said he wants to come back, who knows if he actually would.

Today was the second time that I went iceskating also, which is awesome. It was so so cold but a lot of fun. I had to concentrate a lot but I think if I was listening to music I would have relaxed into it a lot more. I went with Stephen and Mae. It was so good iceskating in Canada, definitely something I'll always remember. There was a fire burning to the side, fairy lights criss-cross above, families out and you could see the building's lights reflect on the lake next to us."

xx

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