Female Democrat or Male Republican?

I wasn't going to touch on politics for awhile, but with only two more months until election day it seems like I can't avoid it. I had been inspired briefly by the Republicans and Trump while I considered reestablishing my voting privilege (an option I have) so that I could responsibly take part in the democratic process. The me I was a decade ago would have no doubts about doing that and would think it my honor and my duty to vote. The me today is trying not to laugh at how both candidates are the most ridiculous I've ever seen.

As a citizen who could vote for one of these clowns, who represents me better? The black married woman representing the Democrats or the white divorced and remarried man representing the Republicans? Am I more a hard working, stubborn mule or an overgrown arrogant elephant? Do I relate more to Kamala who is brave enough to take on a position that no other woman has ever held or do I relate more to Trump who is brave enough to run again after losing everything and being spit on and disrespected countless times? The truth is I relate to both of them and yet neither of them.

How can I relate to a black woman? I don't get to play the racist card as a white woman. I'm supposedly her enemy, the privileged white woman who had everything handed to her. She doesn't see a 53 year old survivor of poverty or a survivor of single parenthood or a survivor of domestic violence. She only sees a whining white woman who isn't going to vote for her just because she's black.

How can I relate to a white man who once owned most of Atlantic City? I've never even owned my own home. I've never been a millionare. I've never been a bully. I've never been a man. He's not going to empathize with a white woman who did everything society said to do and came up a "failure" because he doesn't care if the system is fair or unfair unless it's unfair to him - a white privileged male.

While I can relate to their hard work and resiliency, I can't really relate to their experiences and they wouldn't really understand mine. So why should I vote for either?

Many Americans think it would be amazing and historic if Kamala won and was the first black female President. Others think that if the Republicans don't take back the government, the once Capitalistic United States will become Communist. But I know that either way, it won't matter one bit for a person like me. Neither the Democrats or the Republicans can help a poor white woman. We (poor white women) are invisible to both parties.

Back in the 90s when Clinton was being elected, I voted Libertarian. I was a single white mother on student loans and welfare. How else could I vote? For awhile the Green Party was getting popular and some Americans were happy that the two-party system was expanding to give us more options. But ever since Obama left office, we haven't seen or heard about any other party as if they fell off the planet. We don't even hear about independent candidates like Ross Perot anymore. Just donkeys and elephants. And America wants the citizens to decide if we should ditch capitalism so that we can see our first black female President, or should we ditch morals and ethics, so we can keep Capitalism with another white male who everyone knows is a bully. I really have no idea. All I can keep saying as I shake my head in sadness is niether one of them represents me.