The Connection Between Biggest Failure of My Life and Happiness
For everyone to discuss their failures is not quite simple for them.
We all have been in that phase where we have to decide between “greed” and “fear of losing.”
This happened to most of us. Our reactions can vary.
The same scenario happened to me that I cannot describe in words.
Let me tell you: I’m not greedy. But at some points in our lives, we wish to get the maximum out of everything. How much is the maximum? We don’t know that yet. But we keep trying!
That’s greed.
But we all function this way.
Maybe I’m saying this to comfort myself.
The story of my failure started when I first invested in cryptocurrency. I took $1000 with me and gradually increased it with the pay I get from Medium. I took 75% of it on Binance and invested it and got some mind-blowing profits, too (I’m being honest).
A while ago, a friend suggested that I invest in futures trading. Now the thing is that futures differ from standard trading. Futures is like betting on where the market can go, and this way, you can earn/lose money.
I took all the profits to futures and gained a lot of money too. During which, I loved how betting made me a lot of money with small investments. It was like a dream come true.
And then, one day, I started losing every position. The amount I took on finance, $2000 (EST.), began to evaporate in front of my eyes. And I couldn’t do anything.
I don’t blame this situation on my luck or lack of trading skills, but it’s sometimes getting the maximum out of everything that ruined everything.
Little by little, to recover from the loss, I used more from my savings, and eventually, I emptied my bank account.
Now I have only 4 dollars, to begin with. Every time my friends ask me to go out, I refuse them. Every time I write, my mind shuffles from here and there. Every time I sleep and close my eyes, it’s not the same.
What could have changed?
For soo many people reading this article, 2000 (dollars) isn’t worth anything for them. And yes, it doesn’t worth anything for me too.
It’s a simple $2000 that I can earn from Medium if I write good content every single day for a month.
Perhaps, it’s the failure that makes me awed. I’m frightened! I didn’t know I was capable of doing this.
The thought of failure is dreadful. Every time I sleep, I can’t forget about this. I’m constantly checking on my phone to see if I have an opportunity to cover my loss.
- Maybe it’s the end of me
- Maybe it’s the reminder that I should quit
- Or, perhaps, it’s teaching a lesson
Most of the teachings in our lives don’t come from our family or by reading textbooks. Most things come the way. It’s always you who have to interpret the missing locks.
Now, what about me?
I’m terrified, and nobody, even the closest person, knows them in this situation. My parents, my partner, my friends, I’ve been hiding it all.
To recover from the loss I’m in, I recently applied to content writing jobs on LinkedIn after purchasing the Linkedin Premium Plan and wishing to get back on track. I’ve pitched to many people. The times I haven’t been writing on Medium were the times I prepared pictures to send via email. But none of them has responded yet.
I don’t blame them. It’s the end of the year, and recruitments are as low as an olive. I’m still hoping for a miracle.
I hope I’m the kind of person who doesn’t tell anyone about the problem until I have resolved it on my own. Meaning that once I recover all the losses, I’ll BE FINE IN TELLING everyone what happened to me.
I prefer talking about the problem when I have its solution in hand.
But the solution looks far away from my reach, at least for now!
Final thoughts:
We get greedy for many things in our lives: or want to get maximum.
A lot of people misguide/interpret greed as “taken for granted.” It’s normal. But remember to do it only if you are ready to lose them.
Only greed on the things you can let go!
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