The Beginning

As you know I wrote a three-part story, The Beginning Part 1, 2 and 3. As mentioned in many of my other stories, I do not hide the fact that I myself am in therapy, as well as on the hunt for answers about myself, my heritage and my history and life. That being said, some of the information was jumbled, and mixed in my three-part story. I also had puzzle pieces missing, a lot of puzzle pieces missing.

Over the last year I have been researching, gathering information, diving deeper into my therapy. I have thought about a Part 4 for a while but have not done it. Very recently, some information came up, and I was able to get it confirmed, more than once about me. The pieces are reconnecting, and my mind.

Am I going to re-cap it right now? No, this story is a lot to re-cap, but I will inform you, I had some tangled memories wrong on the timeline. Still correct facts, yes, just a little mixed up on the timeline. Thats the funny thing about the mind, and memories, which takes me back to my story about Dimensions.

As I continue down my road to recovery, and therapy and unlocking doors, my memories are becoming clearer and clearer. Sometimes it is refreshing, and other times, exhausting. As I have reconnected with lost loved ones, I am at a loss with others. Through all the trauma, my mind created scenarios to protect itself from the most brutal and ugly parts of my childhood, but as I work in therapy, the timeline is coming together.

When we go through trauma in our life, the human response system has four response systems to choose from: Fight, Flight, Freeze or Fawn. It is not just in trauma, it is anything, such as conflict or anything that our mind will see as a threat to us. Depending on where I was, who I was around, and the scenario, I did every one of these.

I am finding more information about my history and myself, and some of it, I am not sure how I would begin to write about. The odd thing is, deep down a person knows they know something, its somewhere in the subconscious of their mind, or dimension as I like to call it, and when opened, it's just familiar. When I uncovered the gaps missing in my three-part stories posted last year, I had a lot of help in that by the way, I knew I already knew the information. So much information missing, that it would have been a 5-part story.

However, I cannot give the rest of the Beginning, and it won't be continued. This story I bring you as an end to the Beginning Series stories, it's sad and unfortunate. I do this with a heavy heart, I know I have readers that want more of it, but there is a reason I cannot continue the Beginning series stories on here. I know we have users as young as 13, and the content for which this pertains to is not appropriate due to certain graphic type content that it suggests, even though it is a true story. Though, my loyal readers, not to worry. For those that want more, and would love here more, I am working on a story for publishing as a book.

I have to be courteous of the guidelines of set by this site, but you can find me and DM on FB for details on other published works if you are interested and old enough to read it. I will still have stories here on vocal regularly, this one included, which is the closing The Beginning series, and you can enjoy all my other stories, past and new, instead.