depression
It is not just a matter of feeling sad; discover an honest view of the mental, emotional and physical toll of clinical depression.
'Today' A Short Story
Today I wear grey on top of grey, which shows the true blandness and pain I feel, with every inch of creativity ripped away. I feel as if my heart has been taken away, stolen by the same people that put worse people with others, even though they are not lonely and hold weaker morals. It hurts, seeing so many others with someone, and yourself not getting a shred of hope, happiness, or warmth.
By The Neon Hunter7 years ago in Psyche
The Feeling of Depression
Have you ever wondered what depression feels like? Not the doctor definition of emotional turmoil with manic behavior. The truth. The physical and mental torment it lashes out with. The control it has over someone's life. This is my journey. Welcome to my depression:
By Kyrsta Morehouse7 years ago in Psyche
Would It Matter
I've always wondered, would it matter if I was here? Would anyone truly miss me if I ever decided to just end it? This question was always stuck in my mind, did my 'friends' really care about me? Would it matter to them if I were to disappear one day? I tell myself, "Of course they would, Sienna, you're just being over-dramatic again," but there's a problem with that simple answer. The little voices in the back of my head scream, they scream and tell me that it's all a lie. That my simple answer is nothing but a big fat lie, just another little white lie to get me through another day. I've seen the signs, my friends are pushing me away, telling me they don't need me, that they don't want me. That's okay, though, no one has ever wanted me. My parents didn't want me, my siblings didn't want me, only the evil voices that live in the back of my head want me. So, I always ask myself, would it matter?
By Jinx Cipriano7 years ago in Psyche
Depression
As humans, we talk about a lot of different things out in the public eye. But something we don’t bring up as much is depression and anxiety. We all feel depressed or anxious at one point or another. But some people live it every day. This is the story of a girl who went through just that. That girl is me.
By heaven young7 years ago in Psyche
Depression
Depression is the biggest liar I have ever met. It tells you that you are useless and unworthy. It tells you that you should be ashamed of yourself and it tells you that you are the worst person in the world. It tells you that you are hideous and inferior. It tells you that you are unlovable and alone in this world.
By Samantha Burgess7 years ago in Psyche
A Letter to Anyone Who Told Me to Open Up to Them About my Depression
I'm sorry I haven't told you about it. I'm sorry that I've kept an important part of my life hidden from you. And I'm sorry if it offends you that I don't talk to you about it, but just know I have my reasons. Ones that I hope you’ll understand, but I'll get it if you don't.
By Natasha Anne7 years ago in Psyche
Change
From fetus to geriatric we are constantly changing. We learn to walk, talk, climb, run, and so on. Although we are changing all the time, many of us don’t want it. We get accustomed to our typical, everyday life. We sometimes don’t understand why things happen but starting over new isn’t always a dreadful thing. My brother once told me “Sis, if something isn’t going right, you can only start back over. Don’t let yourself for once think it’s a horrible thing. You can only go positive from here on out.” After that day, I caught myself stumbling through my thoughts. Questions, thoughts, comments, anything and everything was flowing through my brain now and forward. It was if I never heard anything so amazing or uplifting. As I continued thinking, I realized and understood clearly what he was trying to embed in my head. Proceeding from a clean slate would only allow me to remove all negativity. So, if positivity is solely what I’m in search of I’m typically just creating space for it right? As I continued, I also found my self tumbling over thoughts that were hard to swallow. Thoughts that were filled with the darkness of the depression from the negative energy was eating me alive. Demons filling my head with feelings of only uneased pain. The scars as I view my temple only make me aware of the demons I’m fighting. Life must go on though… Looking to the sky, tears in my eyes, praying to the God I claim and the universe that surrounds me. I prayed asking for strength, courage, wisdom, and independence from them. Feelings of loneliness, terrified of the emotions overflowing my body as if I’m an erupting volcano stationed in my hometown. The changes must be made voluntarily or by force, they must be met. My standards have fallen off, but it’s time for the criteria of the people in my life to be raised. The changes I must make can be difficult. Although, with the question in mind “Can I make it, or will it break me?” I didn’t know where to begin… Coming to a which I thought was an understanding of life I broke. Broke completely into pieces. My heart was shattered, and I was no longer praying for the strength I need. I was instead now praying for God to end it all. My life was a mess and the change I needed was now M.I.A. The more I thought of what to do, the more I felt lost. I knew deep down what was necessary. I just couldn’t do it. In the belief that I had already reached my breaking point in life at such a youthful age, I was ready to have it end. I attempt what most call suicide, but what I called a cry for help. I was in search of happiness and with the change that needed filling, I was almost sure it could happen. Post attending all the help I was so-called offered, I decided that it was ME I needed to take care of. Now, most people who, if any, read this, I’m not trying to give the sob story but what I am trying to do is make you all aware that suicidal thoughts creep up on the most unexpected people. You’d never guess I am. I help those in need and brighten those days that have rain. In fact, many people call me for advice, which I love because I been through things and want to help. Acknowledging that I need to step my game up, I started following a few rules. I soon began taking care of me. Step one is PUT YOURSELF ABOVE ALL. Number two is POSITIVE ENERGY RATHER THAN NEGATIVITY. Three will be HAPPINESS COMES WITHIN (except you for you). After coming through with a few rules, I knew it was time to start cutting ties. Eliminate the negative energy in life, whether the people that need to be let go of were blood or not, it was time. If you can cut out the energy draining yours, you will be fine. I lost many friends and I even have family that are done. So, from here on out we must put ourselves above all others. No, this doesn’t me I am better than anyone, it simply means I love, respect, and cherish myself enough to know you are not fit for my life specifically. Some people just come to you to teach you a lesson or show you some things. On the other hand, people come and stay through life. Everything and anything you do in life must be you. Don’t worry about what anyone says. It’s up to you to change your old ways for a better you.
By Story Of A Stranger8 years ago in Psyche
The Darker Days
Depression... For me, it all started about six years ago. On a summer day my brother attempted to commit suicide. Only my mother and I were home, so it was my responsibility to call 9-1-1 while she tried to get details out of him. With my voice shaking and hands trembling, I tried to pull myself together enough to get the words out. The ambulance came and took him to the hospital. He was put into a medically induced coma. Thankfully he survived and doesn’t have any long term effects.
By Kaitlynn Pownall8 years ago in Psyche
How I Beat Depression
Depression is clinically described as: "Persistently low, depressed mood, consistent for at least two weeks." But for over 300 million people worldwide, depression can last for years, or even one's entire life. Thankfully, our understanding of psychology and medical practices has grown to the point where we have some effective treatments for the condition, but many of us still have to deal with it every day.
By J. P. Frattini8 years ago in Psyche
