depression

It is not just a matter of feeling sad; discover an honest view of the mental, emotional and physical toll of clinical depression.

The struggle
Since I was very young I can remember feeling out of place, like I didn’t belong. That feeling of maybe I shouldn’t be here started long before I could even ride a bike. I thought I was weird, I thought something was wrong with me, always anxious, always worrying about every little thing in life.
By Kodiak6 years ago in Psyche
Depression & Athletic Training
One of the problems I see for people who have depression when talking to those who don’t is that it is hard for the non-depressant to understand. I myself have faced this problem with friends and family. On a day that I was exercising, exercising is considered a helpful tool in combating depression, I would step into the shower to wash off. While in there my mind wandered, as it does so often when I shower. In its wandering three thoughts came together; exercise, depression, and someone who does not have depression. I saw that I had depression and have done a good amount of athletic training and exercising. It is good to note that I have run competitively in my life such in track and cross country. In the same respect, one of the people I know that has a hard time understanding depression has also done a good amount of athletic training and exercising since they continue to exercise and were a tri-athlete. In this thought pattern I devised this analogy that might help those who do not have depression and have shared in the experience of athletic training.
By Fire Dragon Lit6 years ago in Psyche
Alive
𝒀𝒐𝒖 𝒂𝒍𝒘𝒂𝒚𝒔 𝒔𝒎𝒊𝒍𝒆 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖’𝒓𝒆 𝒂𝒃𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒕𝒐 𝒄𝒓𝒚; sometimes I wonder if anyone else notices. I’m sure your spine has been permanently curved by the weight of all those empty, broken promises you continue to carry on your shoulders.
By Jillian Baker6 years ago in Psyche
Beach Prayers
Four days....it’s been four days Isiah tells me, since I’ve been fully present, coming up for air through the foamy churn. After a self-induced break from psychotropics he had surreptitiously reintroduced my medication slowly, gently, by coming in at regular intervals and handing me tablets and water before leaving me to sleep away the grubbiness and dead feeling inside me. I arch hesitantly, flexing the sinews, creating space between muscle and bone. Looking for points of pain like running a tongue around a gritty cavity. Usually I can maintain some degree of functionality. Get up, go to work, come home, chuck some washing on, feed the dog, drink more coffee, wine, whatever, smoke, crash. Rinse and repeat. All conducted through a heavy, aching fog. A cotton wool, asbestos fibered glaze.
By Sonny Mac6 years ago in Psyche
Life as a depressed teen.
Let me start off by telling you why I am writing this: when I tell people I am depressed or I’m having trouble with my mental health, they think I’m ‘lazy’ and they tell me to ‘get over it’ I want to try and get people who do not suffer from mental health to understand what it’s like, so maybe when people like me do need to talk to someone they’re not scared to because they don’t want to be judged. So, this will be kind of like my own life story but I’m not going to leave out the bad parts; in fact, those are going to be the parts I want you to pay most attention to.
By Angel arnold6 years ago in Psyche
Superfoods That Help Alleviate Symptoms of Depression
Nutrition is one of the most overlooked aspects of mental health. There are many people who don’t realize or acknowledge the huge role that food plays in physical, emotional, and mental health. If you are struggling with depression, it may feel overwhelming to even think about eating the right foods. However, making a few small changes in your diet can help to reduce symptoms of depression and have a positive impact on your day to day life.
By Sasha McGregor6 years ago in Psyche
The explanation.
Explanation I guess this is where it really starts, this is more going to be more of a book and collection of stories from my life and my travels. I want this to be somewhere where people can come to and just escape for a few minutes of the day and feel a little bit better after they have read what I have to write. This place is going to be a collection of my own personal experiences from my life as I deal with what goes on in my life, there may be somethings that people feel uncomfortable reading but this for me is going to be a place where I can offload what I am feeling, how my day is going and what I have been up-to.
By Im just floating6 years ago in Psyche
An Ode to Misery
My mind can be a very confusing place, but pain must have some kind of purpose. At least i hope it does. What that purpose is, I'm not confident of the answer, but maybe this will serve me as some kind of beacon, a way to airlift myself from my misery and find a state of mind that serves me better than hopelessness. This is an ode to the heartbreak, an out pour of affection to the wallowing, and perhaps a nail in the coffin of my suffering. When I look back on my life, I see it as narrated script broken into chapters, some parts so different to the others it's hard to believe it was me there for all of them. Ive theorised that we all feel like this, like we've lived past lives while in this one. You remember yourself going through the motions of your experiences and often you don't even recognise yourself. When you have depression, from the moment you open your eyes, you wish didn't. You don't want the world to exist! The people in it, the places, you don't want to exist. Everything just becomes a black hole of misery and you become a mere shadow of who you thought you were. An elusive person who only makes appearances in drunken or disassociated states. You can feel that you're still there, somewhere inside your black heart, you know the real you, the person you know yourself as is in there, but it's like you went for a walk outside your own body and locked yourself out trying to get back in. You feel like your drowning, like a black lethal gas is filling your lungs suffocating you, pinning you to the ground with its weight. So heavy. You try to take a breath, but that breath is harder than the last, and the next one even worse. The emptiness, isolation, misery, the sombre music that you listen to over and over and over slowly sends you mad.
By Mel Nicolosi6 years ago in Psyche
I Finally Healed From Depression
Happy people are all alike, and unhappy people unhappy in their own ways. Some people grew up ignorant and thought-free, and some grew up depressive. It was 2009, when my friends asked me what happened, and I cannot believe it myself that I admitted, I'm depressive. It is not only me, but many people cannot ease the burden easily. When an accumulation of simple event caused discomfort, it feels like life hits me hard. Then unpleasant emotions (fear, dissapoinment, shame, grief, despair) dominating, our mind freaks out and rises out dark thoughts about what's been happened leads to what's gonna happen. It is like an pop-up adds when we cannot close the window and we simply cannot control them. The mind doesn't stop there, it thinks about an escape. An escape from the truth: gulping ISSR, alcohol, religion extrimism, sex, shopping, harm someone, and even suicide, as Nietzsche said 'letting the death enter freely'.
By Yulia Ratnasari6 years ago in Psyche
ENFJ's Sometimes Struggle with Depression
1. They tend to be chronic people pleasers. Ask anyone who is an ENFJ personality type and they will admit that they are naturally prone to being people pleasers. It is difficult because ENFJ's have extroverted feeling as their primary cognitive function, therefore they are already very focused on other people's emotional states. ENFJ's desire that those around them are cared for and happy. They want their friends, family members, and co-workers to be as happy has humanly possible. However, it is most certainly not realistic for everyone to always be happy and blowing rainbows at one another, right? ENFJ's will eventually learn that they cannot please everyone, however if they are found to be stuck in the mental mess of pleasing people, then it will lead to them becoming depressed and overwhelmed mentally. In order for ENFJ's to maintain mental stability, they should strive to focus on their own self-care instead of worrying about everyone else's quite as much.
By Rowan Finley 6 years ago in Psyche
The Day I Killed Myself
The Day I Killed Myself On the morning of the day I killed myself, I awoke as I usually did – late, tired, and wishing I could just stay in bed all day. With that all too familiar weight creeping onto my chest, I slowly began battling my subconscious thoughts that all screamed at me to keep my eyes shut and block out the beeping of my alarm (the third in the last fifteen minutes), the beginning of my stressful and emotional version of a morning routine. By the fifth alarm, I realize the time, somehow a shock each day, and bolt from the covers. By the sixth, the one set to remind me I should be leaving, I’m dressed in clothes I pulled out of several piles on my floor, each article selected based on smell rather than appearance. The seventh alarm goes off as I struggle to find a second sock and throw my unwashed hair into a semi-acceptable bun before the eighth and final alarm blares. It tells me I’m going to need to call work because I’ll be late, again. My brothers have left for school, indicating the severity of my lateness, but my dad is still in the kitchen. He calls a goodbye to me as I rush past him, teeth unbrushed and meds ignored, to the door and leave with nine minutes to get to my weekly therapy appointment before work, a good thirty minutes away.
By Miranda Jaensch6 years ago in Psyche
Depression, the Secret We Share
Thankfully, my dedicated addiction to Pinterest has given me ample substance for helping both myself and those in need. If you haven't yet searched through TED Talks, you need to. I not only use them for my own knowledge and well being, I use them within my personal training and lifestyle coaching communities, and within my personal circles. Take a moment to check out this great post from Sarah Rose Coaching.
By Jillian Diane6 years ago in Psyche