coping
Life presents variables; learning how to cope in order to master, minimize, or tolerate what has come to pass.
Internal Dialogue With Anxiety & Depression
Rotting in this vicious cycle. Can't get the noise in my head off of repeat. A constant wrecking ball of unexpected masses smashing my happiness to smithereens. Never have been good enough for others, now it's time for me to be exceptional for myself. I am done having my boundaries dismantled every time I put the last brick in. This isn't the road I anticipated to be on. Filled with potholes of multiple guilt trips. Caring too much for others and never enough for me. Pushed too far over my limits that I've snapped without people noticing. Afraid to ask for help for so many reasons, yet I can't keep everything bottled inside. Needing to find out who I am instead of being told by the ones around me. There are times I wish I no longer existed. In a mind like mine, death doesn't seem selfish with all the pain, hurt, and agony that has been gone through. It's easy to say, "That it can't be that bad." Yet no one knows the hell that I've gone through. Yet, I remain for those who rely on me. That's my problem. I care too damn much for the people that care the least for me. They don't even notice, even when I tell them how much pain and torment I am going through. I haven't been taking care of myself the way I need to be. I have been putting the priorities of others before my own. This suffering in silence needs to end. Tired of being called selfish and inconsiderate for taking time for myself to refresh and take care of me. Filled with emotions that have pushed me to do the right thing for myself and the ones dear to my heart. Things going through my mind on a daily basis. I shouldn't have to apologize for who I am. I'm fully aware that I need to change, not for others, but for myself. So if I don't fit in your perfect mold of who you think I should be, then you should invest in a doll to better accommodate your needs. You don't even know who I am because you are so preoccupied with your assumptions. I am trying so hard to better myself by taking it one day at a time. The things I have been doing lately is for my sanity and overall well being. Tired of being condoned for the faults of others they see in themselves that they don't want to own up to. Want to get past the old ideology of being seen and not heard because it is taking a detrimental impact on my overall well being. Everyone is afraid to tell me the truth because of how I may react. I don't want anyone to hold back what they want to say to me. Lack of communication in my life is causing unnecessary stress. I just want to be normal. Yet what is normal? I've got so much on my shoulders that shouldn't be there that I need to get rid of. Ultimately, I need to stop having this internal dialogue on a daily basis. It's slowly killing me inside, this random torment that comes into my life. Becoming ever so impatient with myself that I don't know what to do. I am so indecisive, that I can't even decide. I'm trying to do what's right for me, yet I've been forced to believe for such a long time to put others first and myself last. Why do I have to be damned to others that don't even care have to be put in front of me? I don't deserve to be treated like I don't belong in this world. It's time that I defy the rules that have been laid in place for me. I shouldn't hold back any longer of what's on my mind and tell it how I see it. I am ready to fight for what I believe in, and not afraid to die for it.
By Joy Ergang8 years ago in Psyche
Depression and Education
Hi. I'm Jade, a 20-year-old university student studying graphic design, and I am in my second year. I live in a town in Yorkshire, England, still with my parents. I'd move out, but property is pricy in my area, even to rent. There is also the fact I suffer from anxiety and depression, which puts a toll on my confidence and motivational levels.
By Jade Walker8 years ago in Psyche
Pet Photography & Mental Illness
If you ever read my bio, yes, I'm a depressed person, but there's one thing in my life that makes me happy; it's pet photography! I have three guinea pigs and a cat that I absolutely love with all my heart. I love them so much I take pictures of them, it’s a hobby that one day I want to turn into my dream job. I also live with my sister where I take pictures of her dogs too.
By Shelby Spencer8 years ago in Psyche
Work Related Stress
We all have stress at our jobs. I’m not going to sit here and tell you that my job is more stressful than say a soldier or fireman, but some days, I try to work with everyone around me and be reasonably agreeable, but it seems that I always meet some kind of resistance, no matter how I approach the problem.
By James Howell8 years ago in Psyche
My Struggle
This is something I’m so scared to write. But some of you reading may need to see this. This is why I chose to share with all of you, my readers. It’ll be an emotional roller-coaster for not just you. It’ll be one for me too. Keep in mind that I’m the one who went through all of this shit the past five or six years of my life. Yes, I am aware that there are other people who went through similar experiences that are too scared to share their story with others. But I am not too scared. This is because I like sharing my story and helping others overcome their own problems, just like I did. So read on and dive in to the story I never should have lived.
By Serena Fix8 years ago in Psyche
How Working as a Retail Assistant Saves My Life Every Day
I moved to the United Kingdom four years ago for study purposes. A year ago I fully came to the realization that I did not arrive by myself. Without previously noticing, I also took anxiety and depression with me as baggage. After one year, I still do not know when the feelings of unavoidable worry started or why I feel sometimes so low that crying seems like the best way to spend my days. However, what I know is that I push myself gently every day to wake up in the morning, to get up from the bed and to smile at people. What makes my situation much easier is a part-time job of R]retail assistant. Not only because I look forward to starting my shift every time, but also because it worked for me better than any therapy.
By Katka Krajcirovicova8 years ago in Psyche
Mental Health & Gaming
I’m sat on a wooden bench in a misty seaside town on the south coast watching the lights shimmer out across the sea, pondering the journey that has led me to this spot again whilst the December air bites at my face. I used to come here as a young teen when my head was full of girls, confusion, football, video games, and American films from the 80s. Not much has changed apart from now it’s late at night and I’ve come here to smoke a cigar as I feel I can justify one every now and then, having quit smoking years ago. I have come to a local pub to write this article to get out of my dad's spare room where I reside at present due to various different circumstances. I am 37 and play video games.
By Andrew Foster8 years ago in Psyche
Best of Alan Watts
Most of you might not be aware of who Alan Watts is, but he is actually a notable philosophical figure of our time. He recently passed away, which comes as a blow to the philosophy community, but his teachings will always be remembered through books, various recordings, and lectures that were given by him on various accounts. Watts was a pioneer in teaching the western world about eastern religious practices and Buddhism.
By Slaydro KinSmoke8 years ago in Psyche
Video Games and Depression
I've been enjoying video games in some form or another for almost two decades, but more prevalently since I bought an Xbox 360 in 2007. What started out as an occasional hobby became something that I love doing, a place where I made friends and somewhere to distract me from suicidal thoughts and to make me feel happy. They are something I can do to focus on something other than how I feel; they can make you feel so many different things over the course of a story. They also allow you to go places you wouldn’t ordinarily go, places you wouldn’t imagine, both real and fictional.
By Duncan Ainsworth8 years ago in Psyche
Dungeons & Dragons & Depression
"I reject your reality and substitute my own."- Adam Savage Reality, in its collective, is horrifying. I came to this conclusion a few years ago when my own battles with depression increased in intensity. On the small scale, I was struggling to deal with my own day to day life. Paying bills, rent, working, socializing, and being creative seemed like trudging through thick tar with no end in sight. Large scale problems like civil rights, war, poverty, and the laughingstock that is our political system seemed like insurmountable problems, but I worried about them all the same. It seemed this world was just not worth living in anymore.
By Sean Fraser8 years ago in Psyche
Self Harming
In this essay, I’m going to briefly discuss and hopefully alter your perspective on certain aspect of the mental ‘illness’, typically termed “Self Harming” or “Self Harming Behaviour”. I present three interrelated points, the literal definition of the word, its nature within reality, and finally a brief juxtaposition with the Taoist Yin Yang notion.
By Ashley Kent8 years ago in Psyche
