bipolar
Bipolar disorder; understanding the highs, the lows and the in between.
Wahalalafia
Wahalalafia. A fitting title to my first ever blog. If you know me you know that in every little speck of my life, I inject humour, to try and dispel any fear or qualms about life. A year ago, I found out the reason why my head was so scatterbrain and why the world (more-so mine) seemed to be heaven one minute and hell the next. Well, the reason was and still is Wahalalafia, or bipolar disorder. I suppose I give a name to it to demystify it, to make it less of a monster. (Though let me tell you, reader, it certainly is not a monster by any means). The uncertainty of this condition (I won’t call it a disease—I don’t think it is. Is this denial?) makes it even more fun. Almost like being on oblivion, knowing that you may or may not throw up but something will happen. I never wake up, (nor do I want to wake up) entirely sure of what I’m doing or where I’m going in life. I float, I glide, in a world where many peoples’ feet are on the ground, I glide. Gliding though unstable can be the most fun experience with this condition. Stability, though predictable is so boring. It’s not as if I enjoy being unstable, but I can’t lie. I like the ride.
By Marie Osuamoh7 years ago in Psyche
Mania, Roller Coasters, and Plates
Hi, (if you are new here) I'm Amanda and I have bipolar depression. I'm starting to notice my symptoms of when I'm having a manic episode. This is not something I have been able to do in the past. I would only notice I was manic after the fact.
By Amanda Brueckner7 years ago in Psyche
Succumbing to Mania
It's 4 am, I'm lying in bed, and again sleep is elusive. The electricity begins to crackle and shoot through my body. The world is dark and still. My room is quiet and safe. I pray desperately for sleep to take me. The only thing I want is to sleep. But sleep won’t come because the demons are creeping back in. Everything is awakening. I’m coming back to life. I want to do all the things at once. I want to strip naked and run. I want to scream and laugh. I want to dance. But most desperately I want to fuck. I want to make things to write and paint. To tell my story. Maybe I should get up and clean the house. Let’s crank the music up and get some one here to have some fun with. Maybe go to the park. Can we swing? Can we play? What if I take a shower? Drown myself in the bath? Oh, dear God why does this happen? I need to sleep. I need to get up. If I just let myself go, I could be happy. I could have fun. It could be great. The possibilities are endless.
By Alice Griffin7 years ago in Psyche
My Story for Bell Let's Talk Day
January 30, 2019 is Bell Let's Talk day in Canada. It's a day where Canadians everywhere are invited to discuss mental health issues. Oh, and of course, a day to promote Bell. There is no shortage of people who are critical of this aspect—the fact that it is a giant, multi-billion dollar company using mental health awareness to get its own name out there. Regardless, the concept is a good one because discussing mental health is never a bad thing. So, despite the criticism, it's a good day to openly discuss mental health. And it gives me a chance to talk about ME! Who doesn't want an opportunity to talk about themselves, am I right?
By Chris Hearn7 years ago in Psyche
Beyond the Bipolar
Bipolar disorder is a condition that includes episodes of mood swings ranging from severe depressive lows to manic high points. The goal for people that suffer with this disorder is to find their middle ground between the two extremes and hold on tight to this comfortable feeling for as long as possible. Accomplishing this is extremely difficult and takes a lot of perseverance and positivity (even if you have to fake it sometimes).
By Kylee Treseder7 years ago in Psyche
The Emergence of Scarlett
Sometimes I really think that I may be insane. My mind wires are never not ignited and my thoughts are never fluid. Picture a train station where trains are supposed to show up on time, one by one. My thoughts, however, are more like a pile-up. Rushing at various "stops" or ideas, beliefs, and overall responses to everyday things.
By Jay Williams7 years ago in Psyche
Bipolar 2
Bipolar 1 is different from bipolar 2 because bipolar 1 is characterized by mania. Bipolar 2 causes depression. Bipolar 2 also has mania though but is mostly depression-based. High moods never descend to actual mania but bipolar 2s get hypomanic. Hypomania can either be euphoric or manifest as irritability. Mania is a high mood that means sufferers talk too fast, have grandiose thoughts, and spend money too much. Medication helps ease the pain of mania. Medication for rapid cycling bipolar of either type is actually required. You cannot get out of taking your medication for that one.
By Iria Vasquez-Paez7 years ago in Psyche
Bipolar Psychosis
I do not recall a time in my life when my emotions were "norma.l" My moods have always ranged from empty, hopeless, isolated to excited, untouchable, and godlike. I couldn't feel pain that I caused to myself or others. I had no remorse, I was apathetic, I couldn't understand others' tribulations. Yet, in the back of my mind, in my soul... I understood others and I was sympathetic to their cries of exhaustion that I was trusted to hear. But I did not care emotionally because of my own internal grief.
By Mary Prough7 years ago in Psyche
