bipolar

Bipolar disorder; understanding the highs, the lows and the in between.

I CRASHED MY CAR INTO A POLE...ON PURPOSE
I'm bipolar. I'll start off by saying that. This way you have a better understanding of why I did what I did. In 2009 I was at a Target store early in the morning picking up a CD (yes they existed back then) from my favorite artist...Tupac. I hadn't slept in 2 days. I was on a MANIC binge. I'm bipolar 1. This means I have more manic episodes than depressive ones. I felt invincible that day, indestructible even.
By Napoleon "Bo" Perrish5 years ago in Psyche
Lost Soul Found
At 19 years old my life ended and my journey began. With a history of Bipolar in the family my father thought it would be an excellent idea to prescribe me an SSRI to cope with the depression brought on by a surprise divorce and a cheating girlfriend. 18 pills and a fuck load of meth later I died. This would be the first of many.
By Daniel Massopust-Ortega5 years ago in Psyche
The Highs & Lows of Motherhood
Throughout the years, my mother’s lessons and advice have continued to prove necessary and invaluable. My mother taught me kindness, compassion, strength, and most importantly standing in my convictions. My mother is a person living with bipolar disorder, which means growing up we had our good days and bad, but even on the bad days, I adored her. Often, when I share this with people, they are understandably astonished. Most people don’t know the experience of being raised or even in the close company of a person with bipolar disorder. Oftentimes, people have a skewed view based on a limited understanding built on memes and internet posts regarding mental health. As a child being raised by someone with mental illness this is a fact I quickly became all too familiar with. Unfortunately for them, many people don’t realize that although my mother’s diagnosis presented some difficulties, it also provided a whole new lens through which I could view the world and those around me. My mother isn’t strong despite her illness. She is strong because of it, and that strength has influenced me in ways I can only attempt to express through words.
By Mel C5 years ago in Psyche
An Ocean Metaphor
The first metaphor I ever found helpful in coping with my brain was in an Outline piece written by Anna Borges, which you can find here. In it, Borges talks about passive suicidality, explaining her experience of struggling with wanting to live. She says that she is not always that attached to being alive, and when I read those words for the first time, I cried. I felt seen, heard, known. For a few years, I’d read through it periodically, letting the wave of relief wash over me once more. Nearing the end of 2020, however, the metaphor of treading water in the middle of the ocean ceased to be accurate enough. I was and am suffering from more than major depression. This meant that I had to tweak the metaphor to fit me a bit better. And so, I made Borges’ elegant analogy into a hot, convoluted, mess.
By K.E. Diller5 years ago in Psyche
Howling at the Zia Pueblo
Close to midnight I am speeding aimlessly through the back roads of New Mexico. Florence + The Machine blasting from my speakers as I am looking for some place to pull over for the night.
By Anna Cunningham5 years ago in Psyche
The Statistics Say
When faced with the question, "What is bipolar disorder," What exactly do you answer? It's a confusing condition for many people, especially when you are suffering from it. It was originally labeled as manic depression, but, now it is known as a mood disorder that causes major shifts in a person's mood, energy, and their ability to carry out everyday tasks. These mood episodes can last from days to weeks. The depressive episodes leaves the person with low energy and motivation and the manic episodes are the opposite, leaving the person feeling energetic, optimistic, and euphoric, this can lead them to making irrational, impulsive decisions. But, it is also important to understand that the intensity of symptoms is varying from person to person.
By Max5 years ago in Psyche
Tangentiality
It's cold out. Perfect! I was up late last night ... well until about 2.30 am. A friend was on my mind. And I am writing a story for him. A dedication piece that I hope provides support.
By Pauline Fountain5 years ago in Psyche
Do you have bipolar disorder that requires treatment? Watch for these symptoms
The first symptoms of bipolar disorder usually appear between the ages of 15 and 35. Bipolar disorder, or bipolar disorder, is a treatment-requiring and severe mental disorder.
By Sarfraz Hussain5 years ago in Psyche
Blue slushie
Blue slushie Fame pAin shame the darkness in my eyes keeps me awake , vaping on my tool grey smoke blowing from my nose , my dad comes in my room says he is getting raw bacon ,boil potatoes in a pot frying stripes on the grill , need some more veggies (brocoli) to balance the deal .Still hungry grabs some more popcorn and a light blue slushie. Goes to the mall , the sun is shining through the glassY roof a brown dog goes woof ! Says he likes my class , I pet him his owner not too happy bout it , I’ll pass. A yellow guy maybe , still hungry Wendies or The golden arches ? Guess I’ll save some of my purple bills , I have sushi at my place . White rice fish and crab. My favorite condiments , I’m extatic. Watching the nba it’s the Phoenix suns with the orange jerseys , CP3 drains a deep three OMG , the crowd goes wild the game won by 1 .The confetti are dropping on the sweaty players they rejoice, i can see it all from my bed trought the pixels of my screen. Wow technology ! Kinda tired starts counting sheeps comfy in my bright Multicolored ikea sheets. One last look at my painting before falling asleep. I’m I dreaming , nope I wake up and go take a leak , sitting on the toilet I’m also defecating . Still sitting on my throne someone knocking on the door its my mum she passes me a Cripsy shrimp onigiri . I’m not really hungry but still wants some oranges , my favorite , I grab a teal plate and start peeling. Remembering walking in the forest surrounded by amber trees, stress and anxiety flowing away as the autumn leafs fall around me. My brother ask me do to the laundry , goes down in the basement the machine starts roaring the cloathes going round and round as my thought differ I start thinking about that girl that blocked me , pink thoughts around my head follows me , i queue up some Lil uzi , headphones on , neon guts playing I’m my ears I feel nostalgic, magic , light purple llama pianiata from that game I used to play, I’m a geek ! She said I tweaked maybe I’ll stick to gaming on my ps4. Even thought I only saw her 3 times. 2 time in the rain and once in the backseat of a cop car.
By Lucas Vincent5 years ago in Psyche
Darker side of the Rainbows
Darker side of the Our Rainbows - Living with Bipolar disorder The golden hot flames raging war between the mind and heart cause the calling out with every fiber of my being, “I see your pain,” “I feel your pain,” “I see your struggles,” “I feel your struggles,” “I’m here, let me help you,” feeling the cold blackish winds carrying my anguished words away from their desires’ focus.
By Jace Drake5 years ago in Psyche
Darker side of the Rainbows
Darker side of the Our Rainbows - Living with Bipolar disorder The golden hot flames raging war between the mind and heart cause the calling out with every fiber of my being, “I see your pain,” “I feel your pain,” “I see your struggles,” “I feel your struggles,” “I’m here, let me help you,” feeling the cold blackish winds carrying my anguished words away from their desires’ focus.
By Jace Drake5 years ago in Psyche
About Me
Hi there to all! Welcome to my first blog post! Thanks for pressing on my post to read more about me. Well first, my name is Ariana and I was born and raised in Miami Florida, i have two siblings, two step siblings, I am a Pisces baby, and my favorite color is blue. My favorite number is eight, my humor is what is called sarcastic humor, I enjoy action movies, detective based tv shows, cooking, reading, and studying numerology for fun.
By Ariana Leon5 years ago in Psyche