anxiety
A look at anxiety in its many forms and manifestations; what is the nature of this specific pattern of extreme fear and worry?
Being an Anxious Introvert
Have you ever felt like your on anchor? Have you ever felt like you are just one of two people inside your body? Like you have this endless, raging fire burning inside of you that wants to concur the world...but then, something as strong as that fire pulls you down.
By Santia Desiree'8 years ago in Psyche
It's Okay, You're Just Acting Crazy!
How do I put this into (appropriate) perspective? You wake up in the morning and you give yourself the 15th self exam of the 24 hours that have passed since you woke up yesterday. You roll out of bed (or maybe you don't) and you spend the next 12 hours checking for lumps, making your friends/family check you and themselves for lumps, wondering when you will be diagnosed with the one kind of cancer that has yet to be discovered (or maybe every single other kind of cancer that has already been discovered), reading WebMD articles to self diagnose your "symptoms," declining all offers to do anything after work because you want to spend however long you have left with your family, not believing your friends/family/DOCTORS when they say that these physical symptoms are all symptoms of your mental illness and not the cancer that you've convinced yourself that you have.
By Maya Passmore8 years ago in Psyche
Living With a Mental Disorder
Living with a mental disorder can hold you back from so much. I was standing in line at the dollar store. It was around 10 PM, so I was literally the only person in the store. I was already having a pretty rough day with my anxiety. Well, I got to the check out. The cashier asked me how I was doing. Out of nowhere, my anxiety just choked me completely and I couldn't even speak. My total came out to around $7 and I needed a few ones. I was so terrified to ask the cashier if I could have five ones and a five dollar bill instead of a ten dollar bill. I made a weird noise and practically ended up running out the store.
By Ashlyn Marie8 years ago in Psyche
Narcissism and You
Have you ever come across that person? You know, the one that you could be screaming at the top of your lungs "PLEASE LISTEN TO ME AND UNDERSTAND WHAT I GO THROUGH!" and they simply just make you feel out of the box. They don't seem to care if they hurt you or make whatever you're going through worse. Well I have, and battling with anxiety and having to deal with this person almost every day of my life has been a real downhill battle for me. Most people diagnosed with anxiety are also diagnosed with depression. I guess it makes sense how they go hand in hand. Sometimes my anxiety is so bad I can't figure out a way to get out of my head and in that I just get depressed because I know I will never be able to truly enjoy life's little pleasures. This narcissistic person in my life fails to come to terms with it and wishes to stay in denial. That just makes life harder for the both of us because as a person with high functioning anxiety I tend to try to and get them to see themselves through my eyes. I forget that narcissists don't think they've done anything wrong and will turn the situation on you and say, "well maybe if you didn't..." or, "maybe if you did..." Let's just say it's a big unnecessary vicious cycle. I want others that have this narcissistic person in their life to understand... nothing will get through to them. Just when you think you have, they come right back with punches. I love this narcissistic person in my life, but for my mental health, I can't just sit and take it anymore. I have found the best way to cope and deal is to ignore. I won't try to fix you if you don't try and fix me. I have gotten into countless arguments trying to explain how my anxiety makes me feel and how I wish they'd at least try and see it from my point of view, but I just always end up getting hurt. I can't speak for narcissistic people but I can speak for people with anxiety, and we tell ourselves daily all of the things we wish we could do or fix or become, but reality is we can't do anything without ourselves. I mean our happy, honest selves and not the picture we try to paint in our heads. I realize that to some anxiety is seen as an "excuse." Well, then this article isn't for you. I won't convince my readers when I have to do that every day after I try over and over again to for just a second forget about my problems. I try to forget about the what ifs, the what could happens, the how do I make this person happy, and the hardest question: How do I make myself happy? It's not a once in a while question, it's a every day get out of bed and make sure everyone else around me is happy. Narcissistic or not, don't give that unnecessary extra battle for someone with anxiety. You might just make them one step closer to happiness.
By Chasity Snow8 years ago in Psyche
Working with Crippling Anxiety
I remember the first time I had an anxiety attack at work. It was my first job at 16, in a supermarket that several members of my family had worked at. I ran into the staff bathroom and didn't come out for an hour, maybe a little longer. I kept going back and forth from crying uncontrollably to staring blankly at the stall door. My closest friend at work came in to try to calm me down, but nothing was working. I was just ready to leave and never go back. Later on that month, I went in to talk to my manager with my mom about taking a leave of absence but that soon turned into me quitting completely. I had to go to an outpatient program for a week at the least but I ended up going for about two and missing some school. There was a bigger part of me that was happy to not go back rather than working again because the thought of going trough another anxiety attack like that was crippling. It traumatized me.
By Melody Wood8 years ago in Psyche
How To Love/ Be In Love With Anxiety
Whether you or the person you love has anxiety, they battle something they simply cannot control which opens a whole new load of doors (doors that shouldn't be opened): the worries, the paranoia, the over-thinking, the hurt. We know it's difficult, so we don't burden you with the news. A support system of friends, family, and partners can be hugely helpful to those with anxiety, but only if their loved ones understand what they do (and do not) need to cope.
By Faye Chamberlain8 years ago in Psyche
My Anxieties Have Anxiety
On any given day, I wake up with half a dozen thoughts, concerns, fears, or ideas running through my head. These thoughts can range from my to-do list for the day to the argument my husband and I had before bed. Some mornings, it is the vague flashes of images from the endless dreams I experienced during the night due to my brain working endlessly to process my emotions and triggers.
By Erica Hale8 years ago in Psyche
Suicidal Ideation
Alarm goes off, you hate the sound. You sink deeper into the bed. You didn’t even want to go to sleep last night and now you suddenly don’t want to get out.. you roll your eyes at yourself for this and get up. It’s cold, you hate the feeling. You go to the bathroom and turn on the light, it’s shockingly bright and you hate it. You dislike the very act of using the toilet. You hate the sound of the toilet paper and the feel of it against your skin between your legs. You pull up your underwear, it never seems to fit quite right. Then your pants. You turn and flush the toilet. You hate the noise. You hate that you don’t know where this goes and that piss is mostly ammonia so you probably just killed a fish. You turn on the sink, hating that even going to the bathroom is such a long to do list, you wash your hands and rinse. Turn off the sink and get a towel to dry your hands, they can never seem to get all the way dry before it’s uncomfortable you’ve been attempting long enough.
By Chris Alvis8 years ago in Psyche
The Anxiety Elf (Part 3)
It’s over. I am no longer "The Anxiety Elf," although the anxiety bit still stands. It’s been well over a week since my last shift, and I’m so glad to be out of there and back to my simple routine, although to begin with I was missing working. It was making me fidgety not having anything to do—but I would rather be fidgety than anxious about having to go back. The money I earned will run out and eventually I will have to think about getting back into more work.
By TheAdventuresOfRoo8 years ago in Psyche
